The State of the Writer: 3/19/23

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A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 1

Project: Story/Series
Working Title: The High Archon (The Truth Seeker Chronicles)
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Original
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 11,282
Status: Reorganizing & Worldbuilding
Progress: Working on tangential ideas

I don’t remember where I found this picture.  Maybe on Pinterest or Twitter?  It was probably Pinterest because that’s where I have it saved and of course there’s no source ugh.  He’s probably from some game or manga I should know about but don’t.  Anyway, I immediately thought he looked like he’d make a beautiful bride and I wanted to write about him lol.  Because my brain will just hyperfixate on something and stay with it until I take enough notes to appease the shit sponge, I’m currently writing some background for this.  Will it make its way into my WIP?  Who TF knows.

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Bear With Me: The Lost Robots

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Title: Bear With Me: The Lost Robots
Series: Bear With Me
Genre: Point-and-Click, Puzzle, Mystery
Developer: Exordium Games

System: Nintendo Switch
Release Date: August 8, 2016

Bear With Me is a point-and-click adventure developed by Exordium Games, an Croatian indie studio founded in 2014.  The original was released in three episodes in August 2016 with this particular part, a prequel, The Lost Robots dropping in July of 2016.  All of the iterations are best described as “episodic noir adventure games,” drawing obvious inspiration from the genre of film noir (per Wikipedia).

This was one of those games where I absolutely loved the demo, immediately bought it, and then instantly forgot about it.  Since I’m nearly always in the middle of playing something (often more than one something), I won’t start another game right away, but I want to be able to as soon as a “slot” opens up.  The main issue is I only have so much energy, including emotional energy, to dedicate to something, and once I’m in I’m all in.  Granted Bear With Me was more relaxing than taxing, but you don’t necessarily know that beforehand.

The aesthetic of the game is perfect for the film noir mien with everything in black and white,

and the voice acting is excellent.  Ted, or Ted E. Bear, the one referenced in the title, has the hardboiled detective persona down pat.  His voice has a bit of a flat effect, but it fits the character of the jaded PI.

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The State of the Gamer: 3/9/23

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A weekly post updated every other Thursday detailing my current gaming projects.  I have an account at Grouvee, which is a site you can use to keep track of your backlog, so please feel free to friend me there!

Games Demoed: 1

  • Octopath Traveler II – I knew I was going to buy it, but I wanted to demo it first anyway.  I wound up finding a $50 Nintendo eShop during the move so I paid a lot less for it than I would’ve.  I figured it would be good to have an another game to play when I wasn’t in the mind frame for Harvestella, especially in the seasonal farm planning phases for that game, which is what I’m in now.

Games Purchased: 6

  • Astronomical Club for Queers $1.99 ($0.00) @ Nintendo eShop – I will pretty much buy anything that’s queer/gay lol.  Especially when it’s this inexpensive.  Even if I don’t like the game putting money into the hands of queer (or at least queer friendly) indie devs is one of my top priorities.
  • Mozart Requiem $7.49 ($5.19) @ Nintendo eShop – I almost didn’t buy this because I’m not 100% certain about it.  There’s something in the description about a time limit and TSN doesn’t roll like that lol.  But it was on sale and I had points so if I don’t like it, it’s only $5 lost, and there’s a good chance I’ll like it since I’m a music fan.
  • Japanese Escape Games: The Retro House $6.99 @ Nintendo eShop – I’m really glad this was super cheap because I haven’t been that into it.  The puzzles aren’t that intuitive and the help isn’t that helpful.
  • Japanese Escape Games: The Mansion of Tricks $6.99 @ Nintendo eShop – Same issue as the other JEG.  I’m not going to give up on them entirely since I do love point-and-click puzzle escape games, but if I find better ones on my iPhone I tend to go back to them.
  • Nancy Drew: The Captive Curse $3.49 @ Nintendo eShop
  • Octopath Traveler II $59.99 ($13.59) @ Nintendo eShop – I love finding gift cards.
Total: $86.94 ($36.25)

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The State of the Reader: 3/8/23

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A biweekly post updated every other Wednesday detailing my current reading projects and what new titles I’ve added to my to-read list.  Title links go to Goodreads, and if you have an account there feel free to friend me!  I’d love to see what you’re reading and/or planning to read.

Books Purchased: 10

Total: $19.21

Books Finished: 3

Title: The Cruel Prince
Series: The Folk of the Air
Author: Holly Black
Date Added: August 1, 2019
Date Started: October 31, 2022
Date Finished: January 3, 2023

Media: eBook/Kindle

I had mixed feelings about this one.  For the most part I liked it: enemies to lovers, slow burn, and all that, but some of the shit Jude did was so unbelievably stupid it was hard to suspend my disbelief.  Yes, even beyond the foolishness most YA protagonists do.  There’s also something about the world building that bothers me, but I can’t put my finger on it.  It’s meant to show how common the weirdness of faerie is for Jude and her twin sister, but it almost makes it come off as shallow as opposed to just every day strangeness.  I put the next book on my TBR list, but I don’t know when I’m going to get to it.

Note: I’m just going to list out the other two books I finished since I started them after I put this post on impromptu hiatus.  Sorry, I just have a lot of catching up to do and lack the time and energy to do my regular detailed post.

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The State of the Writer: 3/5/23

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A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 2

Project: Story/Series
Working Title: The High Archon (The Truth Seeker Chronicles)
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Original
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 11,282
Status: Reorganizing & Worldbuilding
Progress: Updating Scrivener with details about merfolk

I have been on this merfolk/seafolk kick for a good two or three months now.  I already had ideas about hybrids in the series combined with needing to create lore for people who live by the sea on the other side of a mountain, and I was able to tie that in with other previous lore.  I’m at the part where I put everything into Scrivener, which is the last step, but I still have at least two other demographics to do after this.  Eh, slow progress is still progress.

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Blister by Jeff Strand

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Title: Blister
Author: Jeff Strand
Date Added: October 1, 2017
Date Started: November 12, 2018
Date Finished: November 20, 2018
Reading Duration: 8 days
Genre: Thriller, Horror, Suspense, Dark, Humor

Cover of Blister by Jeff StrandPages: 275
Publication Date: June 21, 2016
Publisher: Sinister Grin Press
Media: eBook/Kindle

They call her Blister. She’s a hideously disfigured twenty-three year-old woman, living in a shed next to her father’s house, hidden away from the world.

Jason Tray is a successful cartoonist, banished to his agent’s lakeside cabin for a few days of mandatory rest and relaxation. One night, while hanging out with a couple of the locals at a dive bar, he takes them up on their offer to go “see Blister,” having no idea what they’re talking about.

He peeks through the window at the most nightmarish thing he’s ever seen.

In the morning, he wakes up, hung over and regretful. He’s better than this. He needs to…apologize?

From the Bram Stoker Award-nominated author of PRESSURE, DWELLER, and WOLF HUNT comes a tale of fiendish secrets, ghastly crimes, and human monsters.

Blister’s premise is a bit of a bait-and-switch, and it kind of has to be.  You can’t squeeze a 275 page story out of a man being an asshole to a disfigured woman and then apologizing the next day.  Obvious questions about how she became disfigured come up, as well as why the hell she’s living in a shed, and just when you think all the questions that can be answered are, something else happens to keep the story interesting.

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The State of the…Me

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I promise I’m still around.  Things have just been in upheaval since we moved on January 14th of this year and were finally done with our shit hole apartment on January 31st.  I suspended the State posts a bit unceremoniously the week we moved for obvious reasons, and I just haven’t had the time or wherewithal to pick them back up.  I will do so at some point as well as my reviews and everything else.  It’s just been…difficult.  The move is a fantastic change, but it’s still a change and my Taurus AuDHD brain is still screaming and trying to come up with schemas for this new situation.  There’s no more climbing three flights of stairs to leave my house, but there is climbing one flight every night, which is something I’m fine to navigate even with my bad knees and back, but it’s still something I need to work into my daily life plan.

Our next task is to get the computer room set up, which will allow me to work upstairs in an office, but we need to buy two computer desks because I can’t find one that would be able to accomodate us both.  I have some ideas, but if you know any place that has decent and inexpensive desks, I’m all ears.

We still have some work that needs to be done on the place like the dryer and bathroom fan venting, though at least we did get a washer and dryer…the dryer was damaged during delivery and needed to have the latch on the door replaced haha.  We did have to call a plumber earlier than we thought, but we were able to get the toilet that needed it resealed and set.  Homeownership y’all!  I’d still rather deal with ten times this than what we had at our apartment, which I will tell you all about at some point, probably after I leave my scathing review.  It was BAD peeps, really, really bad.

Anyway, here’s a picture of the cats being good together for once.  That’s what we do it for.  Seeing them scamper around a new and bigger place makes me so happy, and I want to do so much more for them.  I’m planning on putting platforms on any wall that I can once things get more settled and the place isn’t filled with boxes.

Cid’s fuzzy; Garnet is smooth ♥

The Broken Rose: Chapter 12 – Ways and Means

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Update: It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything to this blog because moving is a total beast, but I had to carve out some time to update for Bethany’s artwork.  This was my most controversial chapter, and she handled the subject matter beautifully ♥  I’ve put the image near the appropriate text in the chapter.

The Broken Rose Page

<–Chapter 11                                                                                                                                 Chapter 13–>

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VII, its characters, and settings are all property of Square Enix so I can take no credit nor claim any ownership of that. I do take some credit for the story’s plot.
Banner Artwork Disclaimer:  The featured artwork for the banner is entitled White rose I and was created by the very talented Deviant Artist RemusSirion who was gracious enough to grant me permission to use it here.  The picture has been slightly altered from the original. All rights belong to the artist, and links are included for both the artist page and the work.
CHAPTER ARTWORK DISCLAIMER: THE FEATURED ARTWORK FOR THIS CHAPTER IS ENTITLED aerith AND WAS CREATED BY THE Extraordinarily talented hatori0322.  THE PICTURE HAS BEEN SLIGHTLY ALTERED IN APPEARANCE AND TO INCLUDE THE CHAPTER NUMBER AND TITLE.  ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO THE ARTIST.  LINKS ARE INCLUDED FOR BOTH THE ARTIST’S PAGE AND THE WORK.

*******MAJOR CONTENT WARNING*******

Consistent and sustained graphic descriptions and mentions of rape/ sexual assault, sexual slavery/bondage, slavery, human trafficking, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of violence, mental abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, body shaming, starvation, torture, forced pregnancy, forced childbirth, miscarriage, forced miscarriage, abortion, and other potential disturbing and triggering topics.

Aeris must make her biggest decision since her rescue two months ago.

Painting of Aeris/Aerith.

Painting of Aeris/Aerith. She is looking wide-eyed off to the left with very red and slightly parted lips. She has a large red rose in her long brown hair. Her eyes are a huge and vibrant green. The background is lighter green. Chapter 12 Ways and Means is in the upper left corner in a slightly darker green than the background.

Sephiroth wandered around the kitchen with his phone couched in his right hand.  Heavy boots made no sound on the floor though his hair whispered against his coat.  He could silence that, too, if he so wished, but there was no need for stealth now.  During his hunt, he’d thought of his rose and how she slept safe and secure.  He did not smile to not crack the mask, but emerald filled the darkest corners.  No monster that evening could stand a chance against a righteous protector’s wrath, and the Great General only wished it was Midgar that burned within his sight.  Not yet, the reckoning will come at its proper time. 

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The State of the Writer: 12/25/22

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A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 0

Project: Story/Series
Working Title: The High Archon (The Truth Seeker Chronicles)
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Original
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 11,282
Status: Reorganizing & Worldbuilding
Progress: Updating language details on Scrivener

Since I’m working on updating my term glossary with Ravic surnames and they use a lot of jewels/gems/precious stones, I figured this image would be fitting.  I’m finally putting the language notes into Scrivener, which is the final part of the update.  I did each separate group, but now I’m doing a more general language notes with gender markers.  I’m still debating doing a separate post that kind of explains some of the world, but it would definitely be after we move lol.

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The State of the Gamer: 12/15/22

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A weekly post updated every other Thursday detailing my current gaming projects.  I have an account at Grouvee, which is a site you can use to keep track of your backlog, so please feel free to friend me there!

Games Demoed: 0

Games Purchased: 2

  • Crisis Core – Final Fantasy VII – Reunion – $69.99 @ Nintendo eShop
  • Sotano – $3.99 @ Nintendo eShop
Total: $73.98

Games Finished: 0

Games On Hold: 0

Games DNF: 0

Currently Playing: 1

Title: Harvestella
System: Nintendo Switch

Harvestella cover

Date Started: November 20, 2022

I continue to love and worship this game above all others I haven’t even touched the Crisis Core remaster yet lol.  I’m currently halfway through winter and I’m hoping I can finish the latest dungeon before spring because that will open up the cave biome and I’ll be able to plant more seeds and stuff.  Again I hope Squeenix decides to give this game some love and DLCs because they could do so much with it.

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