The State of the Gamer: 10/22/20

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<–The State of the Gamer: 10/8/20           The State of the Gamer: 11/5/20–>

A weekly post updated every other Thursday detailing my current gaming projects.  I have an account at Grouvee, which is a site you can use to keep track of your backlog, so please feel free to friend me there!

What I Purchased

  • The Lion’s Song – $5.99 ($0.04) @ Nintendo eShop

What I’m Playing

Title: Etrian Odyssey 2 Untold: The Fafnir Knight
Series: Etrian Odyssey
System: Nintendo 3DS

Cover of Etrian Odyssey 2 Untold: The Fafnir KnightDate Started: 9/7/20

I’m at the boss of the 4th stratum now and I need to do quite a bit of leveling before I take her on per the suggestions.  I want to try to take down one of the stratum’s FOEs especially since there’s an ingredient I can get from it.  It’s been a few day since I’ve played though.  I lose a little bit of steam if I don’t have a direct path forward, and really all I have to do is grind the FOEs on lower floors in order to level up.

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The State of the Reader: 10/21/20

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<–The State of the Reader: 10/7/20         The State of the Reader: 11/4/20–>

A biweekly post updated every other Wednesday detailing my current reading projects and what new titles I’ve added to my to-read list.  Title links go to Goodreads, and if you have an account there feel free to friend me!  I’d love to see what you’re reading and/or planning to read.

Purchased: 3

Title: The Snow Queen
Series Title: The Snow Queen Cycle
Author: Joan D. Vinge
Date Added: December 11, 2014
Date Started: September 22, 2020

Cover of the Snow Queen by Joan D. VingeMedia: Hardback (Library)
Progress: 46%

I’ve renewed this once and I have one more before I have to return it.  I plan to purchase this book anyway, probably along with it’s sequel.  The more I read the sadder I am that it was never made into a movie or rather series.  I’m already thinking of my dream cast.  Maybe Emilia Clarke for Moon/Arienrhod, but that could just be because she’s done the silver-blonde thing before with Danaerys, so I’m just stuck on that.  Obviously, the same actress would play the two characters since Moon is a clone of the queen (it’s in the blurb so it’s not a spoiler), though I suppose if you found two similar looking people or twins that would work, too.  I haven’t hashed everything out yet lol.

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The State of the Writer: 10/18/20

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<–The State of the Writer: 9/20/20         The State of the Writer: 10/18/20–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 0

Project: Story
Title: The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 250,147
Prior Word Count: 250,284
Word Difference: -137
Status: Editing
Progress: Finished second edit of Chapter 27

I spent entirely too much time trying to find another picture.  I swear to god I had it saved somewhere on my computer or at least on Pinterest or or Deviant Art, but I couldn’t find it.  I probably scrolled right past it because that’s how I roll, and I freaking know I’ll find it later when I’m not looking.  It also doesn’t help that my husband is currently playing FFVIIR at some seriously integral parts (plate drop, Aerith’s backstory by Elmyra et al), so my concentration is a bit off.

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The State of the Gamer: 10/8/20

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<–The State of the Gamer: 9/24/20           The State of the Gamer: 10/22/20–>

A weekly post updated every other Thursday detailing my current gaming projects.  I have an account at Grouvee, which is a site you can use to keep track of your backlog, so please feel free to friend me there!

What I’m Playing

Title: Etrian Odyssey 2 Untold: The Fafnir Knight
Series: Etrian Odyssey
System: Nintendo 3DS

Cover of Etrian Odyssey 2 Untold: The Fafnir KnightDate Started: 9/7/20

I made it past the third stratum’s boss Scylla, and also found out how to pronounce her name.  I always thought it was said “SIGH-luh,” but in (at least the game), they pronounce it “SKY-luh” or “SKILL-uh” (I forget lol).  Okay…according to the interwebs, I was more right with the “correct” pronunciation.  The “c” should be silent since it’s next to a “y,” but then again the name is from Ancient Greek, but more importantly the game devs can take liberties.  Anyway, I was able to beat her the second time around after I looked it up.  I should’ve realized the ice block puzzles on the way up would’ve factored into the boss fight.  There are four of them you can hit her with, which takes her HP of around 23k down by about half.  She was still pretty challenging even though she has a set pattern.

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The State of the Reader: 10/7/20

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<–The State of the Reader: 9/23/20         The State of the Reader: 10/21/20–>

A biweekly post updated every other Wednesday detailing my current reading projects and what new titles I’ve added to my to-read list.  Title links go to Goodreads, and if you have an account there feel free to friend me!  I’d love to see what you’re reading and/or planning to read.

Purchased: 5

Title: The Snow Queen
Series Title: The Snow Queen Cycle
Author: Joan D. Vinge
Date Added: December 11, 2014
Date Started: September 22, 2020

Cover of the Snow Queen by Joan D. VingeMedia: Hardback (Library)
Progress: 26%

I’m getting really into this.  It reminds me of Dune, but with a more interesting and female main character lol.  I’ve been talking to the friend who lugged this book around with her all through high school, and she had a friendly “I told you so” about my Dune observations (it’s also another reason why she has no interest in Dune).  I’ve read Dune, which I enjoyed, but I wish I’d been into sci-fi back in high school because I would’ve loved this.

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The State of the Writer: 10/4/20

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<–The State of the Writer: 9/20/20         The State of the Writer: 10/18/20–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 0

Project: Story
Title: The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 250,284
Prior Word Count: 250,107
Word Difference: +177
Status: Editing
Progress: First edit of Chapter 27

I was able to add in some of the text from my notes the other day, but I still have a little bit more.  It’s…interesting to say the least.  I have this tendency to find myself writing/editing, at least thematically, about currently topical events.  What do I mean?  Well…there’s a conversation I’ve wanted to add for a while where Aeris asks Sephiroth if there’s anyone he didn’t regret killing, and the answer to that is, uh, well the person in real life in question is not…doing…well.  Anyway, I’m hoping to finish and post this within the next two weeks so I can at least participate in some part of Preptober.

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The State of the Gamer: 9/24/20

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<–The State of the Gamer: 9/10/20           The State of the Gamer: 10/8/20–>

A weekly post updated every other Thursday detailing my current gaming projects.  I have an account at Grouvee, which is a site you can use to keep track of your backlog, so please feel free to friend me there!

What I Bought

  • AVICII Invector – $19.99 @ Nintendo eShop
  • Tales of Vesperia – $14.99 @ Nintendo eShop

What I’m Playing

Title: Etrian Odyssey 2 Untold: The Fafnir Knight
Series: Etrian Odyssey
System: Nintendo 3DS

Cover of Etrian Odyssey 2 Untold: The Fafnir KnightDate Started: 9/7/20

I’m on the third stratum now.  I forget what it’s exactly called, but it’s an ice one to the fiery stratum before.  I got my ass handed to me by the Fire Demon boss of the second.  Well…not so much the boss as the Fire Cubes it summons.  If they explode, they take out your entire party.  I’m already on the second floor of the frozen stratum, and I love how each floor has it’s own gimmick with the FOEs (stronger enemies you can see/avoid).  The 11th had these Ambush Wolves that changed direction every third step and that was the only time you could see them.  Now the 12th has these dragons that sleep during the day but are awake and moving at night.  You’d think “Aha!  I’ll just explore the labyrinth during the day!” but there’s a mission where you have to collect these flowers that only bloom at night.  You can find their locations during the day and mark them, which is what I’m doing.  There are also slippery floor puzzles to map and figure out, so my plan is to explore/map the floor as well as find the flowers when it’s safe then pick them up at night once I know where they are.

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The State of the Reader: 9/23/20

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<–The State of the Reader: 9/9/20         The State of the Reader: 10/7/20–>

A biweekly post updated every other Wednesday detailing my current reading projects and what new titles I’ve added to my to-read list.  Title links go to Goodreads, and if you have an account there feel free to friend me!  I’d love to see what you’re reading and/or planning to read.

Purchased: 3

Finished: 2

Title: The Twisted Ones
Author: T. Kingfisher
Date Added: August 26, 2020
Date Started: September 7, 2020
Date Finished: September 15, 2020

Cover of The Twisted Ones by T. KingfisherMedia: eBook/Kindle

Holy shit, I couldn’t put this down, but I had to at night because I’m a fraidy cat.  Foxy is the greatest fucking character ever written, and this is up for my Book of the Year competing with Pestilence.  I did not understand why this has a rating under 4 stars on Goodreads, and reading the comments, I still don’t understand.  Apparently, some people found the mood whiplash to be unrealistic, like how Mouse would be making jokes in the most dire of circumstances.  Do these chuckle fucks not understand morbid/gallows humor?!!  That is EXACTLY how my terrified ass would be acting!  I am definitely reading more T. Kingfisher.

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The State of the Writer: 9/20/20

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<–The State of the Writer: 9/6/20         The State of the Writer: 10/4/20–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 1

Project: Story
Title: The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 250,107
Prior Word Count: 250,448
Word Difference: -341
Status: Editing
Progress: First edit of Chapter 27

I’m always glad when I’m not the only one who sees similarities in paradigms as this week’s artwork attests.   I initially started thinking such due to this picture,

because it just brought the “lord of death and flower maiden” paradigm into sharp relief.  I want to do a rehashing of the myth myself at some point with Hades as more of a winter king, but that’s a song for another day.

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The Broken Rose: Chapter 26 – Picked By a Rose

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<–Chapter 25                                                                                                                                 Chapter 27–>

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VII, its characters, and settings are all property of Square Enix so I can take no credit nor claim any ownership of that. I do take some credit for the story’s plot.
Banner Artwork Disclaimer:  The featured artwork for the banner is entitled White rose I and was created by the very talented Deviant Artist RemusSirion who was gracious enough to grant me permission to use it here.  The picture has been slightly altered from the original. All rights belong to the artist, and links are included for both the artist page and the work.
CHAPTER ARTWORK DISCLAIMER: THE FEATURED ARTWORK FOR THIS CHAPTER IS BY NVALKYRJA. THE PICTURE HAS BEEN SLIGHTLY ALTERED IN APPEARANCE AND TO INCLUDE THE CHAPTER NUMBER AND TITLE.  ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO THE ARTIST.

*******MAJOR CONTENT WARNING*******

Consistent and sustained graphic descriptions and mentions of rape/ sexual assault, sexual slavery/bondage, slavery, human trafficking, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of violence, mental abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, body shaming, starvation, torture, forced pregnancy, forced childbirth, miscarriage, forced miscarriage, abortion, and other potential disturbing and triggering topics.

Author’s Note: This chapter is pretty much the pure smut I promised.  It’s actually much lighter than what I had originally.  I will eventually post the more X-rated version (though this one is still certainly MA).  Editing smut is much more difficult than editing regular romance.  There’s a fine line between decent erotica and unintentional hilarity, and I hope I fall on the side of the former.  Don’t laugh at me too hard if I don’t.

Aeris changes her mind to delightful results about something she once feared.

Artwork of Aeris and Sephiroth. Aeris is right side up on the left looking at Sephiroth who is upside down on the right.  Chapter 26 Picked by a Rose is in the upper left corner.

The winter would ravage with thick spilling snow that silver would still always best.  He went out more often than Aeris, of course, to mayoral duties’ demand.  It was less, though, than summer for little required immediate response.  His tasks were more to avail his aid for any pressing concern, and monsters of course, always that rigor that kept his instincts sharp.

When Sephiroth left, whatever the need, his thoughts were of always his Aeris.  The joy that would beam through his heart at return that gave the rents a sweeter purpose.  It spread through his veins and bled through his skin, his flower’s ecstasy.  At sight of me…her once murderer.  I don’t want to leave yet I do.  Knowing her presence ever awaits me makes Heaven’s Gate utter truth.

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