The State of the Writer: 6/30/19

<–The State of the Writer: 6/16/18         The State of the Writer: 7/14/19–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 1


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 253,441
Prior Word Count: 253,610
Word Difference: -169
Status: Editing
Progress: 2nd Edit of Chapter 17

Rounded wicker basketBehold my absolute laziness as I just use the second basket picture for this week.  BEHOLD IT.  I found this one and last week’s months ago for this chapter and figured I’d just roll with it.  I’m not going to use the for the chapter pic, but they’re good for this status post.  I’m more than halfway through the second edit of Chapter 17, and it’s going well.  I don’t think I’ll need a third, so should be able to post as soon as I’m done.  Side note, but I’ve noticed my stories have been getting more kudos and comments on AO3 since the Remake release date announcement et al.  It’s a sensible correlation.  I, myself, have been more active on tumblr, though I’m still pissed at what they did with NSFW stuff and how that apparently fucked up my blog even though I had nothing that was NSFW.  My picture and background are not only gone, but trying to restore them doesn’t work 😡  I’ll hopefully figure it out eventually, but I’m irritated.

“General, c-can you put me down so I can see better, p-please?”

As easy as placing a doll in a house, Sephiroth did as she bid, but she kept his angelic face in her sight, captured as all was forgotten.

“Am I what you wish to peruse, little flower?”  He tried to pull mirth, but it waned.  “You can look at me whenever you wish.”

“I can never look enough.”

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The State of the Watcher: 6/22/19

<–The State of the Watcher: 6/8/19                      The State of the Watcher: 7/6/19–>

A biweekly post updated every other Saturday detailing my continual struggle to complete my extensive movie, show, and anime list.

Movies: 1

Melancholia (DNF)

Melancholia movie cover

This one was on my list for a long time, and on paper, it looks like something that would be really up my alley.  It’s highly symbolic of depression, and indeed, “melancholia” is a way I often describe the state I’m in.  I call it “the melancholia,” because sometimes I’m a pompous, artsy ass.  The title of the movie refers to a rogue planet of the same name set to crash into earth and destroy all life.  Justine, played by Kirsten Dunst, attempts to forestall thoughts of the inevitable through marriage, but her despair is palpable throughout.  No one seems to care about her feelings, and she’s constantly berated, gaslit, and made to feel bad for her inability to be happy.  They are angry with her for being upset, but no one ever seems to ask her how she feels, though we, the audience, assume it’s because the world is ending, and the farce she’s forced herself to go through cannot make her forget that.  It is an excellent metaphor for depression with the added facet that this is happening to everyone (the planet will destroy us all of course), but only Justine (the depressed) is unable to handle it.  She tells her mother that she’s frightened, and her mom kicks her out of the room.

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The Sunshine Blogger Award #5

I receive a whole hell of lot of these for someone who hates sunlight :p

This time I was nominated by Extra Life Reviews who does just that.  He gives out extra lives and reviews.  Wait…maybe it’s just that his reviews give extra life to all those who read them.  You won’t know which one it is unless you check his blog out, now will you?  I always appreciate every nomination I receive, and I can only apologize for how long it’s taken me to get to this one.  So without further ado, here are the questions I was asked to answer.

1. In which cases would you deem the manga superior to the anime on which it’s based?

Hm, I’ve fallen quite far behind in my anime viewing, not for lack of desire, just lack of time.  It’s been a while since I’ve watched any, and lining up something that I’ve both watched the anime of and read the manga is a bit difficult.  I’ll say that the Chobits manga was more detailed than I remember the anime being (though I watched it a long time ago), although there were things in both media representations that were way ickier to my more 2019 sensibilities.

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The State of the Reader: 6/19/19

<–The State of the Reader: 6/5/19         The State of the Reader: 7/3/19–>

A biweekly post updated every other Wednesday detailing my current reading projects and what new titles I’ve added to my to-read list.  Title links go to Goodreads, and if you have an account there feel free to friend me!  I’d love to see what you’re reading and/or planning to read.

Books Obtained: 2


Books Finished: 1

Title: Ubik
Author: Philip K. Dick
Date Added: August 29, 2017
Date Started: May 15, 2019
Date Finished: June 7, 2019

Ubik coverMedia: eBook/Kindle

Even though a major aspect of this was predictable, I still really liked it.  I liked the concepts behind it, even the confusing wrench of Pat Connolly’s powers.  I may look at some reviews/interpretations of this before I write mine just to help my focus.


Currently Reading

Title: The Last Stitch Goes Through the Nose
Author: Moses Norton
Date Added: May 28, 2019
Date Started: June 13, 2019

The Last Stitch Goes Through the Nose by Moses NortonMedia: eBook/Kindle
Progress: 30%

I’d be remiss if I didn’t mention this novel was written by one of my favorite bloggers The Well-Red Mage, but I will try not to let my fondness of him bias me towards this novella.  I like the way it’s written for how it is; it has a fairy tale, almost sing-song aspect to its prose.  I’ll reserve any critiques for when I finish.

Title: The Case of Charles Dexter Ward
Author: H. P. Lovecraft
Date Added: March 15, 2013
Date Started: May 9, 2019

The Case of Charles Dexter Ward coverMedia: eBook/Kindle

I wish this story would just get to the damn point.  Really the only reason I’m reading Lovecraft is for FFVII essay research purposes.  The things I do for my fandom…

Title: Tigana
Author: Guy Gavriel Kay
Date Added: February 9, 2016
Date Started: December 8, 2018

TiganaMedia: Paperback
Progress: 79%

I’m on the last chapter…where it all will come together.  No matter how this ends, whether in joy or woe, I know it will be beautifully sewn.

Title: The Hero With a Thousand Faces
Author: Joseph Campbell
Date Added: April 24, 2014
Date Started: December 3, 2018

The Hero With a Thousand FacesMedia: Hardback
Progress: 51%

I might be reading this, too, for research purposes, but at least I’m enjoying it.


I’m in a “I hate everything” mood, because health shit.  Someone breathed on me wrong, and I’ve been broken out for the past few weeks.  No clue whats going on with it.  It’s always a mystery I don’t have the energy to solve.  Apparently summer in PA means it rains.  ALL THE TIME.  I don’t think we’ve had a day without rain for months.  Ah, I should stop complaining.  This has nothing to do with books.  Well, it’s almost exactly the half point of the year.  Where are you with your challenge?  I believe I’m on track with 9 or my 20 books read.  How about you?


<–The State of the Reader: 6/5/19         The State of the Reader: 7/3/19–>

The State of the Gamer: 6/18/19

<–The State of the Gamer: 6/4/19           The State of the Gamer: 7/2/19–>

A weekly post updated every other Tuesday detailing my current gaming projects.  I have an account at Grouvee, which is a site you can use to keep track of your backlog, so please feel free to friend me there!

What I Finished

Title: Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney – Trials and Tribulations
Series Title: Ace Attorney
System: Nintendo Switch

Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney - Trials and TribulationsDate Started: 6/3/19
Date Finished: 6/17/19

The last case in this is probably the longest of any game, and holy shit, is it intense.  This is one of the best written series I’ve ever played.  It’s up there with Final Fantasy with regards to attention to detail and narrative tightness.  Every character, every character is connected through one case that affected the course of all of their lives.  There’s no case that isn’t connected to another, and no matter how simple it looks, the circle just enlarges the deeper Phoenix and co dig.  The final case is just heartbreaking no matter which direction you look, BUT I do have some great ideas for fanfics 😀

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The State of the Writer: 6/16/19

<–The State of the Writer: 6/2/18         The State of the Writer: 6/30/19–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 2


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction Novel
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Current Word Count: 253,610
Prior Word Count: 253,601
Word Difference: +9
Status: Editing
Progress: 1st Edit of Chapter 17

It’s funny how one chapter will need so much correction and tweaking whereas another will need minimum.  Chapter 17 has been one of the latter so far.  My biggest issue is thinking of a title for it, but that usually comes while I’m in the midst of editing.

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The Broken Rose: Chapter 16 – In Bloom

The Broken Rose Page

<–Chapter 15                                                                                                                                 Chapter 17–>

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VII, its characters, and settings are all property of Square Enix so I can take no credit nor claim any ownership of that. I do take some credit for the story’s plot.
Banner Artwork Disclaimer:  The featured artwork for the banner is entitled White rose I and was created by the very talented Deviant Artist RemusSirion who was gracious enough to grant me permission to use it here.  The picture has been slightly altered from the original. All rights belong to the artist, and links are included for both the artist page and the work.
CHAPTER ARTWORK DISCLAIMER: THE FEATURED ARTWORK FOR THIS CHAPTER IS ENTITLED AERITH-DISSIDIA AND WAS CREATED BY THE Wonderfully TALENTED AUTUMN-SACURA and is used here with her permission. THE PICTURE HAS BEEN SLIGHTLY ALTERED IN APPEARANCE AND TO INCLUDE THE CHAPTER NUMBER AND TITLE.  ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO THE ARTIST.  LINKS ARE INCLUDED FOR BOTH THE ARTIST’S PAGE AND THE WORK.

*******MAJOR CONTENT WARNING*******

Consistent and sustained graphic descriptions and mentions of rape/ sexual assault, sexual slavery/bondage, slavery, human trafficking, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of violence, mental abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, body shaming, starvation, torture, forced pregnancy, forced childbirth, miscarriage, forced miscarriage, abortion, and other potential disturbing and triggering topics.


Author’s Note: The picture used in this chapter is the outfit I was describing in Chapter 5.


Aeris receives something she always desired, while Sephiroth battles his guilt.

Aeris/Aerith standing in a garden with Grecian pillars with white flowers at the top. She is wearing a lavender colored dress with silver lining and boots of the same, while standing askance on the edge of the pillared dais. There is a large pink rose and greenery to the bottom right of her. The words “Chapter 16 – In Bloom” are to her top right.

Aeris had glimpsed the roof of their house, but she’d never set foot above.  By Sephiroth’s office were stairs leading up, and the little maid gingerly stepped.  It had been a few weeks past their night conversation, and she’d heard noises from above.  Scraping and scratching had trickled down, making Aeris jolt up in concern.  Once she’d had Myrna over for tea, but her neighbor sipped through without startle.  The maid pressed a knuckle to her pursed lips, holding the questions in.

The day following her “meeting” with Miers she’d texted her friend contrite.

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