Month: October 2019

The State of the Gamer: 10/24/19

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<–The State of the Gamer: 10/10/19           The State of the Gamer: 12/5/19–>

A weekly post updated every other Thursday detailing my current gaming projects.  I have an account at Grouvee, which is a site you can use to keep track of your backlog, so please feel free to friend me there!

What I DNFed

Title: Final Fantasy VI
Series Title: Final Fantasy
System: PlayStation 3 (Port)

Final Fantasy VI coverDate Started: 6/2/18
Date DNF: 10/12/19

It just makes sense to declare DNF on this.  I’ll start writing the essay review on it as soon as I can, which will probably be December at this point.

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The State of the Reader: 10/23/19

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<–The State of the Reader: 10/9/19         The State of the Reader: 12/4/19–>

A biweekly post updated every other Wednesday detailing my current reading projects and what new titles I’ve added to my to-read list.  Title links go to Goodreads, and if you have an account there feel free to friend me!  I’d love to see what you’re reading and/or planning to read.

Books Obtained: 1

Books Finished: 1

Title: Kushiel’s Dart
Series Title: Phèdre’s Trilogy
Author: Jacqueline Carey
Date Added: February 21, 2012
Date Started: August 23, 2019

Kushiel's Dart by Jacqueline CareyMedia: Hardback (Library)

Well I did it.  I finished a book I shelved as DNF years ago, and I’m glad I did.  I wound up using my last library renewal, though I managed to finish before the 21st.  I still didn’t return it because I worked from home that day, so.  I also bought this book AND the second one, because I loved it.  Whatever issue I had prior didn’t bother me now, and while it does have a long denouement, it makes sense for the scale of the story.

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The Broken Rose: Chapter 19 – Preparations

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<–Chapter 18                                                                                                                                 Chapter 20–>

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VII, its characters, and settings are all property of Square Enix so I can take no credit nor claim any ownership of that. I do take some credit for the story’s plot.
Banner Artwork Disclaimer:  The featured artwork for the banner is entitled White rose I and was created by the very talented Deviant Artist RemusSirion who was gracious enough to grant me permission to use it here.  The picture has been slightly altered from the original. All rights belong to the artist, and links are included for both the artist page and the work.
Chapter artwork disclaimer: the featured artwork for this chapter is by an unknown artist and from an unknown source.  THE PICTURE HAS BEEN SLIGHTLY ALTERED IN APPEARANCE AND TO INCLUDE THE CHAPTER NUMBER AND TITLE.  ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO THE ARTIST.  if you are the fore mentioned or have any identifying information about them, please let me know.

*******MAJOR CONTENT WARNING*******

Consistent and sustained graphic descriptions and mentions of rape/ sexual assault, sexual slavery/bondage, slavery, human trafficking, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of violence, mental abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, body shaming, starvation, torture, forced pregnancy, forced childbirth, miscarriage, forced miscarriage, abortion, and other potential disturbing and triggering topics.

Sephiroth prepares for a special hunt that will leave Aeris alone for several days.

A near profile of Sephiroth on the left side of the frame. He is looking intense and determined toward the right. His eyelashes are very dark and dramatic.  Up near his eye level against a backdrop of misty green are the words “Chapter 19 Preparations.”  His silver hair curls upward  on the opposite side of the frame and the words.

Aeris awoke to the Great General’s voice.

“The timing is imperative.”

The miasma of sleep did circle her round, shielded from nightmares within in his embrace.

“I am normally a very patient man, but it is running dry.”

The little Cetra was swathed in no less than two blankets along with her guardian’s arms.  Light from the ceiling augmented the screen for she’d been reading before her nap.  Her head rested on her general’s chest, hand curled against his shirt.  Dream webs stung her eyes so she blinked them away to fade amidst summer soft.

“It must be done soon.  You have the first funding.”  Frost skin was so taut without twitch.  “Winter will be upon us soon.  This cannot be suffered to wait.”

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The State of the Writer: 10/20/19

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<–The State of the Writer: 10/6/19         The State of the Writer: 12/1/19–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 1

  • Secret Project – Even though it was a bit late, I finally finished my secret essay and I can now start working on Preptober…more than halfway through the month *sigh*

Project: Story
Title: The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 254,260
Prior Word Count: 254,301
Word Difference: -41
Status: Editing
Progress: Prepping to post Chapter 19

I was hoping to have Chapter 19 posted by today.  In fact had I not woken up at 5 I probably would have. Everything is all set up; I just need to do it.  If I get this post done in a timely manner and I have the brain power, I will afterwards.

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The State of the Gamer: 10/10/19

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<–The State of the Gamer: 9/26/19           The State of the Gamer: 10/24/19–>

A weekly post updated every other Thursday detailing my current gaming projects.  I have an account at Grouvee, which is a site you can use to keep track of your backlog, so please feel free to friend me there!

What I’m Playing

Title: Etrian Odyssey Untold: The Millennium Girl
Series Title: Etrian Odyssey
System: Nintendo 3DS

Etrian Odyssey Untold: The Millennium GirlDate Started: 6/30/19

So I kind of finished this!  I beat the final boss, which was actually easier than some of the optional bosses, but there’s still more game to go.  There’s a final floor of the labyrinth to complete, and I could challenge the final boss again once I reach the bottom in a harder battle.  I’m not sure if I’m going to do that.  I might just finish up mapping the labyrinth and doing all of the quests before I call it a game.  I’m currently trying to beat this lightning dragon, but I’m just not taking off enough HP per turn and eventually I run out of TP (the game’s magic point system), and none of the restoratives restore enough.  Like I said, this game is much harder than my Final Fantasy fare, but I like the problem solving opportunities it presents.  I wound up switching my main character back to a Highlander after watching a bit of a video on that fore mentioned dragon, since they were using techniques only a Highlander has and KILLING it, so I need to level my guy up again, possibly rest my Protector so I can put skill points into Volt Wall, and then see what Grimoire Stones I can mess around with.

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The State of the Reader: 10/9/19

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<–The State of the Reader: 9/25/19         The State of the Reader: 10/23/19–>

A biweekly post updated every other Wednesday detailing my current reading projects and what new titles I’ve added to my to-read list.  Title links go to Goodreads, and if you have an account there feel free to friend me!  I’d love to see what you’re reading and/or planning to read.

Books Obtained: 2

Currently Reading

Title: Faust
Author: Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Date Added: August 24, 2014
Date Started: September 1, 2019

Faust by GoetheMedia: eBook/Kindle
Progress: 33%

Mephistopheles has finally shown up.  Now things are going to get interesting.

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The State of the Writer: 10/6/19

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<–The State of the Writer: 9/22/19         The State of the Writer: 10/20/19–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 0

Project: Story
Title: The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 254,301
Prior Word Count: 254,387
Word Difference: -86
Status: Editing
Progress: Chapter 19 Third Edit

So I lied…again.  I was going to post Chapters 19 and 20 concurrently in order to fulfill the intention of my promised delivery of justice.  That is no longer true, because I want to get Chapter 19 out as soon as I finish it, leaving you all to wallow in anticipation for just a bit longer as you await this fabled retribution, or I would think this if I were even half as narcissistic as I claim to be when in reality I know you all have way better things to do than await my next chapter hahaha who am I kidding but seriously I’M WORKING AS FAST AS I CAN PLEASE DON’T HATE ME.

I thought Chapter 19 was going to be shorter, but it’s a decent length chapter in its own right even after truncation, and since I’ve already sorta edited parts of Chapter 20, it shouldn’t take as long to get that out *fingers crossed*

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