The State of the Writer: 11/1/20

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A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 1

Project: Story
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Final Word Count: 249,902
Prior Word Count: 250,147
Word Difference: -245
Status: Finished

I wrote this in the authors note, but my god…this was an experience.  I learn something new with every story I write.  Among other things I realized something that’s supposed to just be an idea trial for something else could turn into the longest thing I’ve ever written and stand on its own merits.  I also expanded on my own person Aeriseph head canon universe in ways I never dreamed of, but even more so I realized things about myself I never considered.  Granted as I grow older I conclude more aspects of my identity, but with what I write and what I want to write it comes even clearer.

I’m not done with this “universe” I suppose (and I think it’s kind of hilarious that the Remake has timeline shit going on so anything is theoretically possible lol).  TBR takes place as an alternate scenario to the one in Northern Lights.  Things happened slightly differently involving when Sephiroth went back to Midgar after his revival, but my mental meanderings about this are complicated and I won’t bore you with them.  Suffice it to say I thought of a lot of offshoots for this story and NL that I hope to write in the future.  Since I’ve established a lot in both fanfics, I might do some short and drabble writing, but that’s something I’ll consider for the when I’m not so tired.

Project: Story Audio Recording
Title: Northern Lights
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Length: Novel
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Status: Editing
Progress: Adding pictures for slideshow

I’m finally at “that” part…when she first sees him.  I was trying to find a picture where she looked terrified and I hope I hit it.  It’s technically one of her using the White Materia, and I think she’s supposed to look plaintive and pious, but she looked pants-shittingly horrified imho, which is how I’d imagine she would if she saw her murderer *shrugs* With that I now need to gather all of the pictures of Sephiroth haha.  I have a lot to go through.  The caffeine pills I took earlier are finally starting to kick in, so I feel more energized about this.  I still have twenty more minutes to go in the recording, but twenty-five are down.

I might start posting a pic I’d like to use per update instead of just the Northern Lights cover as well as put an image count.

In Progress

  • Game Reviews: Final Fantasy VI – I started the preliminaries of Celes, but I had to hold off on the “good cop” part of her narrative because I wasn’t in the head space to discuss anything in that vein as (once again) police brutality and state sanctioned violence killed someone else and in MY city no less.  FYI if you don’t want to hear “political” stuff, you are in the wrong place.  I also don’t think asking for authorities not to kill people like me is political (or it shouldn’t be), but this is where we are.  I mean…I write about how narratives reflect the zeitgeist, so I’m not sure what you expected *shrug*
  • Book Reviews: The Strange and Beautiful Sorrows of Ava Lavender by Leslye Walton – I’m finally at the part I really want to talk about.  It’s something I cannot believe I didn’t figure out sooner.  Like I’m EMBARRASSED about this, y’all.

I’m not even supposed to be posting this today.  As you know, or maybe know if you’ve been following this blog for the past few years, I usually take a hiatus in November to do NaNoWriMo.  Well, I decided to nix NaNo this November for a number of reasons.  One, I didn’t get to do Preptober because I didn’t finish up The Broken Rose in September during my vacation as planned.  I thought I’d be able to finished up the last two chapters in that month anyway, but it takes at least a month to do a chapter, so I was clearly drinking that dumb bitch juice.  I also like never take into account the fact that I’m, idk, chronically ill?  Like I have chronic fatigue, fibro, a fused lower spine, and a host of other things.  Doing anything extra makes me more tired, and I’ve been playing DDR and strength training when I can.  Plus doing birthday stuff for the hubs this week and weekend.  Also, I’m T I R E D from finishing this huge project.  My brain needs a break.  I was hoping with Preptoper I’d have time to gather my thoughts and shift gears towards the next story or figure out if I wanted to work on editing and publishing my short.  Like I just posted the final chapter and it’s November.  A bitch needs a break.  

I downloaded Scrivener and I’m going through the tutorial.  I have no idea how long I can use the trial version or if it’s just limited functionality until you buy it, but so far I’m liking it.  I feel like I need something specifically geared towards writing.  Don’t get me wrong, I love OneNote, but I still feel like my thoughts are scattered.  I could organize them better, but I want to see if another program might help me with it.  The tutorial is pretty involved, so it’s not something I can do in one setting.

So yeah, I’m not doing the November hiatus this year since I’m not doing NaNo.  You lucky bastards are stuck with me mwahahaha.

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13 thoughts on “The State of the Writer: 11/1/20

  1. Pingback: The State of the Writer: 10/18/20 | The Shameful Narcissist Speaks

  2. I can DEFINITELY understand needing to take a break. This year has been utterly draining and all kinds of frustrating. I wasn’t going to do NaNoWriMo this year either but wound up changing my mind at the last minute. There’s no way I’m going as hard as I have before though, and I won’t be beating myself up if I can’t finish. 🙂
    Also, I absolutely love the whole “drinking that dumb bitch juice” bit. ❤ Haha

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  3. Congratulations on finishing TBR! It has been a long project/journey and I definitely think you deserve a break. ❤ Your creative brain will undoubtedly be happier for the mental relaxation.

    I haven't gotten to finish the last TBR chapter yet (blasphemy!) because what is life anymore, but maybe tonight it will be a good distraction from election day stress.

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    • It’s like a war between the “must rest” and “must work on next thing” lol. I’ve been going through that Scrivener trial/tutorial, and so far I’m really liking what I see. I think it will be really good for me to organize not only stories but research projects.

      I’m flattered something I wrote will be used as a distraction for this utter madness lol. I’m in such a weird place with it. I’m pretty sure I just have the veneer of numbness, but it’s working? Like I’m in “expect the worst” mode, but “maybe things will not be the worst possible scenario?” I just don’t know!

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