Month: February 2023

The State of the…Me

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I promise I’m still around.  Things have just been in upheaval since we moved on January 14th of this year and were finally done with our shit hole apartment on January 31st.  I suspended the State posts a bit unceremoniously the week we moved for obvious reasons, and I just haven’t had the time or wherewithal to pick them back up.  I will do so at some point as well as my reviews and everything else.  It’s just been…difficult.  The move is a fantastic change, but it’s still a change and my Taurus AuDHD brain is still screaming and trying to come up with schemas for this new situation.  There’s no more climbing three flights of stairs to leave my house, but there is climbing one flight every night, which is something I’m fine to navigate even with my bad knees and back, but it’s still something I need to work into my daily life plan.

Our next task is to get the computer room set up, which will allow me to work upstairs in an office, but we need to buy two computer desks because I can’t find one that would be able to accomodate us both.  I have some ideas, but if you know any place that has decent and inexpensive desks, I’m all ears.

We still have some work that needs to be done on the place like the dryer and bathroom fan venting, though at least we did get a washer and dryer…the dryer was damaged during delivery and needed to have the latch on the door replaced haha.  We did have to call a plumber earlier than we thought, but we were able to get the toilet that needed it resealed and set.  Homeownership y’all!  I’d still rather deal with ten times this than what we had at our apartment, which I will tell you all about at some point, probably after I leave my scathing review.  It was BAD peeps, really, really bad.

Anyway, here’s a picture of the cats being good together for once.  That’s what we do it for.  Seeing them scamper around a new and bigger place makes me so happy, and I want to do so much more for them.  I’m planning on putting platforms on any wall that I can once things get more settled and the place isn’t filled with boxes.

Cid’s fuzzy; Garnet is smooth ♥

The Broken Rose: Chapter 12 – Ways and Means

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Update: It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything to this blog because moving is a total beast, but I had to carve out some time to update for Bethany’s artwork.  This was my most controversial chapter, and she handled the subject matter beautifully ♥  I’ve put the image near the appropriate text in the chapter.

The Broken Rose Page

<–Chapter 11                                                                                                                                 Chapter 13–>

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VII, its characters, and settings are all property of Square Enix so I can take no credit nor claim any ownership of that. I do take some credit for the story’s plot.
Banner Artwork Disclaimer:  The featured artwork for the banner is entitled White rose I and was created by the very talented Deviant Artist RemusSirion who was gracious enough to grant me permission to use it here.  The picture has been slightly altered from the original. All rights belong to the artist, and links are included for both the artist page and the work.
CHAPTER ARTWORK DISCLAIMER: THE FEATURED ARTWORK FOR THIS CHAPTER IS ENTITLED aerith AND WAS CREATED BY THE Extraordinarily talented hatori0322.  THE PICTURE HAS BEEN SLIGHTLY ALTERED IN APPEARANCE AND TO INCLUDE THE CHAPTER NUMBER AND TITLE.  ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO THE ARTIST.  LINKS ARE INCLUDED FOR BOTH THE ARTIST’S PAGE AND THE WORK.

*******MAJOR CONTENT WARNING*******

Consistent and sustained graphic descriptions and mentions of rape/ sexual assault, sexual slavery/bondage, slavery, human trafficking, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of violence, mental abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, body shaming, starvation, torture, forced pregnancy, forced childbirth, miscarriage, forced miscarriage, abortion, and other potential disturbing and triggering topics.

Aeris must make her biggest decision since her rescue two months ago.

Painting of Aeris/Aerith.

Painting of Aeris/Aerith. She is looking wide-eyed off to the left with very red and slightly parted lips. She has a large red rose in her long brown hair. Her eyes are a huge and vibrant green. The background is lighter green. Chapter 12 Ways and Means is in the upper left corner in a slightly darker green than the background.

Sephiroth wandered around the kitchen with his phone couched in his right hand.  Heavy boots made no sound on the floor though his hair whispered against his coat.  He could silence that, too, if he so wished, but there was no need for stealth now.  During his hunt, he’d thought of his rose and how she slept safe and secure.  He did not smile to not crack the mask, but emerald filled the darkest corners.  No monster that evening could stand a chance against a righteous protector’s wrath, and the Great General only wished it was Midgar that burned within his sight.  Not yet, the reckoning will come at its proper time. 

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