Update: I was also tagged in this by Gamers United, so I wanted to include a link to that lovely blog, too 🙂
It’s not a year yet since I was tagged in this by Athena from AmbiGaming, so I…win? Not that there’s a contest hehe.
Anyway…I believe other bloggers were calling this “10 Things That Make Me Happy” or “10 Happy Thoughts,” but I don’t think that’s appropriate for me. I’ll try to explain this as best I can, and I hope people won’t see it as something negative or needing pity, but I don’t really do happiness. Like, I’m not a happy person. Now granted, if you ever met me (and of course if I never told you this), you wouldn’t suspect it in the least. I’ve been told I’m very pleasant to be around, which is because I tend to not be social on my bad days. This doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy things in life, nor does it mean I don’t feel things intensely (oh the feels are strong in this one); it’s more like the things I do, I do because they make me feel fulfilled and accomplished like I’m doing something. I write because if I don’t, I won’t be able to get the stories, essays, metas, analyses, etc. out of my head. I blog because I have things to say and the internet allows me to have my own place to say them. It also gives me a medium to display my writing. I play video games because they make me feel like I’m accomplishing something, and I can write about them. I read because I love stories (yes, it really does all come back to stories/writing). I do things that are enjoyable because I’d be less fulfilled and sadder if I didn’t do them, but I can’t say they make me happy, but that’s okay. I don’t know if this is a common trait of people with depression or if it’s maybe an INFJ thing, but the binary of happy/unhappy is fallacious and harmful. Here’s the Oatmeal saying it far better than I ever could.