The Editing of Northern Lights – The Second of the Seventh is Sorrow

These are the Editing Notes for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–The Seventh Is the Saddest          Chapter 8 and the True Story–>

10/14/14
Welcome to the second edit of Chapter 7.  Yeah, I sound uber stoked.  Not that I’m not excited for the editing or the blog, it’s just been a rough couple of days.  Let’s just say that things never turn out the way you plan/expect, and it can be very disheartening.  But I’m not going to bore you with my stupid life; I’d rather bore you with my stupid story 😉

I always try not to write exactly the same sentence as the one prior in terms of style.  So no two sentences in a row start with “The” or a gerund or the same name (or I attempt not to let this occur).  Readers tend to get bored of the same sentence type over and over again.  Sometimes readers aren’t morons (except when they are).

The coat thing is really bugging me.  I don’t think he would remove hers.  It’s too invasive/obtrusive.  Also the glove thing.  I want to say Sephiroth’s still wearing his gloves because he only really removes them when Aeris asks him to at this point.  I…don’t think I’m really clear about the gloves actually.  I never say whether he keeps them on or off.  Ah well, it’s going to be one of those things that could be either or.  I think the bank thing also astonishes her because it’s so normal.

I know I’ve mentioned my angel head canon.  Well one of the major things about angels is they have stars swimming in their eyes like universes untold…except for fallen, so Sephiroth does not have stars inherent in emerald, only the reflection of light so cold.  That’s why the stars “melt in emerald” oooooor they did before I changed it.  Huh, this editing session is full of fail today, isn’t it?

At least it's adorable fail

At least it’s adorable fail

I suppose it’s fitting…these past few days have definitely matched.  Ugh, it’s not even maudlin Mondays, readers.  Tis the Thursday before Halloween *sigh*  Anyway…Seph hates any references to himself as “the general” at this point.  It’s a staunch reminder of the past.  When they’re outside under the starlight, he’s pretty much expecting her hatred and derision to fall upon him in full force.  What else can he expect?  It’s what he’s been waiting for, but she gives him nothing but kindness.  Not…quite the word I’m looking for (see above picture).

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The Editing of Northern Lights – The Seventh is the Saddest

These are the Editing Notes for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–Sometimes Seven Isn’t Social          The Second of the Seventh Is Sorrow–>

I know it’s been forever since I’ve made any editing posts, but that was because I was putting all of my effort/energy into finishing up my WIP.  Well that’s done and I’m spending the week playing catch up on whatever I can play catch up on.  My neglected Northern Lights editing entries not excluded.  I’m almost two years behind on this, but life and literature call, and I must always answer. 

Ugh, I need to update quite a few things.  I don’t like the introductory paragraph.  Why the hell am I calling it an “Editing Blog” when this entire site is a blog?  I think I initially thought this blog was just going to be for the editing posts or I was going to make a specific blog just for that, and initially I was on Google Blogger, but since I get more hits here on WP, I decided to post here and also expand my horizons.  Ah, I’ll have to update ALL of them now won’t I?  Yes…I will because I’m super anal about conformity hehe.  Anyway, you don’t want to hear me rambling about this, do you?  Enjoy the editing post below if that’s what you came for 🙂

Content Warning: Brief mention of suicide and sexual assault.

10/12/14
First there’s this.

And it’s fantastic. (Future Narcissist just located its source on Deviant Art by one Saharadesr.  It’s actually entitled Turn or Burn)  I really, really wanted to share this, but I’d offend half the people on my friend’s list.  I’m…weird about that, and not just the offending part.  I’ll try to explain, and I’ll also try to find the meme that really nails it down.

I love Final Fantasy VII.  Like there are no words to truly encompass my level of love for it, but I hate talking about it with people for various reasons.  One, people like to one up each other and say shit like, “Well this Final Fantasy/this character is better.”  Bitch, did I fucking ask you that?  (Ooh…Past Narcissist was really angry that day)  I was telling you about how much I love one thing and the first thing you do is tell me how it’s not worthy of  my love or imply that because I love it so hard there must be something wrong with me?  Thanks, I’m sorry I shared.  I know a great deal of this has to do with the circumstances surrounding the time I first played it, but that certainly doesn’t diminish the reasons.

This.  This right here is it.  And I hate this.  The closest fandom with a similar paradigm is probably Doctor Who because of the different regenerations/iterations of the doctor, yet I still feel Whovians have more of a solidarity.  Hell, they even have a fandom name: WhoviansFinal Fantasy fans can’t even say that.  Maybe it’s because I’m not as deep into Whoville as I am Final Fantasy, but from what I’ve seen, it’s not nearly  as vehement or vitriolic.

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The Editing of Northern Lights – Sometimes Seven Isn’t Social

These are the Editing Notes for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–The Stars Fall Down in Chapter 7          The Seventh Is the Saddest–>

10/12/14
Dearest readers…I am woefully tired and drained.  Social interaction does that to me, and I’ve been having far more of it than I can stand these past few days.  Next weekend will not be much better as I have two Halloween parties to attend, arg…

I’m totally on board with you anti social interaction dalek, but I must blog; I must edit; and I must tell you about my latest dreams.  The first one occurred two nights ago (I’m all wibley wobbly timey wimey up in here because the date says 10/12/14, but it’s really near the end of the month and that’s when I had the dreaming shenanigans.  The date above it actually the date I originally wrote this (of course it’s more than a year in the future now), and it was something that should’ve had me crying my eyes out , but I was just kind of meh.

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The Editing of Northern Lights – The Stars Fall Down in Chapter 7

Note: This is the Editing Blog for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–The Revelation in the Reedit of Chapter 6          Sometimes Seven Isn’t Social–>

10/10/14
Chapter 7 – A Calm and Private Place
Quote
: “There is no shortage of fault to be found amid our stars.” –John Green “The Fault in Our Stars”
Picture: Yes
Picture Source: Yes
Picture Satisfaction: Very High

Okay first let me talk about the first quote I had.  It was also from The Fault in Our Stars, but was the more romantic, “I fell asleep like you fall in love…slowly and then all at once,” which I absolutely adore, but it’s far too soon for this point in the tale.  Possibly later, but not right now.  The one I went with is still from the same source and we do go back to Prufrock at the end.  I believe I mentioned I was re-introduced to the Eliot poem by TFiOS, but it’s too soon to speak so blatantly of love.  It’s…coming though.  In this chapter not much happens action wise, but there’s a good deal of character delving and discovery.  Here’s the breakdown.

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The Editing of Northern Lights – The Revelation in the Reedit of Chapter 6

Note: This is the Editing Blog for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–The Two Day Long Finale of the Rest of Chapter 6     The Stars Fall Down in Chapter 7–>

Warning: Some discussions of rape.

10/7/14
It was 11:00 on my (third) wedding anniversary.  Why was I starting the reedit of chapter 6?  How far am I going to get?  Who knows, but as I write this I see it took me three days to complete the reedit and the notes I have on 10/8 are barely a paragraph, and the ones on 10/9 are little more than a page so I’m going to be ambitious if I dare and try to combine three days into one blog post or at least type them up.  It remains to be seen whether or not I’ll post them in one submission or not.  I haven’t done that yet, but there’s a first time for everything…and a last time for everything.  That’s the name of an episode of Aeon Flux,

That link did go to a site where you could watch all the episodes, but alas that is no longer the case.  I should’ve left it up because the message that remained was quite amusing.  Ah, I’m feeling magnanimous so here you go.

Also just a random tidbit, but “the aeons” are the Gnostic equivalent of the Sephiroth.  Both are emanations from God, and in pop culture, they’re both the names of beautiful, leather clad killers of questionable morality.  I don”t need to make these kinds of things. up.

I have all of the episodes on a PSP disk.  Memories, my lovelies…memoria.  Noli manere, manere in memoria  Wtf…I’d apologize; that’s my usually go to in these situations, but I realize now that I’d just be apologizing for being myself, and I’m tired of doing that.  My brain just works like that.  It’s a brain; it’s supposed to work in connections.  That’s what it’s made of; a series of connections, and I think in connections as the brain is made up of connections.  I’m meta-brained.

Qabalistic Tree of Life*sigh* yes that, too.  It’s all about connections, isn’t it?  Speaking of which I haven’t watched a video from my favorite ASOIAF theorists in a while.  Must remedy that tomorrow.  I also must grind for FFII AND play Child of Light, which I talked about the other day.  *sigh redux*  There’s just not enough time.

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The Editing of Northern Lights – The Two Day Long Finale of the Rest of Chapter 6

Note: This is the Editing Blog for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–All of the Tangents vs. Chapter 6     The Revelation in the Reedit of Chapter 6–>

10/5/14
I return, dear readers, to this labor of love, this fairytale I cannot forsake.  Fairytales…FFVII has quite a few similar tropes to les conte de fées, n’est-ce pas?

Hey, Future Narcissist here, I apologize to any of my French speaking readers if I’ve butchered your lovely language.  I decided to study it because my first name is French so I figured I should learn more about it.  I loved it immensely and miss it profusely.

I don’t know why I keep throwing random French around.  It’s been happening a lot lately.  I studied in high school, and grew so adept that I actually had diary entries in the tongue.  I am far less fluent now and have no clue what the hell I was talking about.  I’m sure it’s all teenage angst and fancy.  In fact, I know what it is, and I’d rather not relive painful memories, but I miss rolling French around my tongue.  It’s such a gorgeous language, liquid in its tones with its swallowed R’s and nasal vowels, but the vowels aren’t nasal like the awful Pennsylvania ones I hear (and admittedly speak) all the time.  The ones that my choir teachers would constantly chide us for, because singing with a Pennsylvania vowel is just awful.  It’s probably why I sing classically with an English accent; their vowels are far better. Far above I mentioned Final Fantasy and fairytale tropes, and I meant to elaborate on that before I started talking about my French.  Ah F’s populate my life, don’t they?

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The Editing of Northern Lights – All of the Tangents vs. Chapter 6

Note: This is the Editing Blog for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–Revelations and Sweetness for Chapter 6     The Two Day Long Finale of the Rest of Chapter 6–>

10/4/14
“Child, tuck yourself in bed.  Let me tell a story…”

This is from Child of Light.  I just finished playing a little bit more of that game, and it is nothing less than beautiful.  It’s my other play/review project.

Which I have finished and have a review for here.

If you have the means, please play it.  The battle system is the Grandia II engine and the soundtrack is the loveliest of the lovelies by Coeur de Pirate.  I’m listening to it right now.

Grandia II I’ve played, but never Grandia (I).  Perhaps I should put on that on my play/review list.  I’ve been a bit lacking in my FFII playing lately, but that shall be remedied this weekend.  My husband is participating in a fundraising tournament called Extra Life.  The link is there, but by the time anyone will be possibly reading this, 2014 will be long over and 2015 half told, but the event does occur every year, and it’s quite a noble cause.  You seek donations to help kids battle diseases, essentially earning them an…extra life.  I love puns on a good day, but especially when we’re talking about saving children.  I have a soft spot in my heart for the innocent, but back to Extra Life; on a specific day you play games for 24 hours after you’ve garnered your donations.  Any and all games are acceptable: video games, board games, card games, tabletop RPGs, etc.  Any and everything so long as you do it for 24 hours.  So yes, a very worthy cause, and I highly encourage you, noble readers, to at least education yourselves on it. As such I will have the apartment to myself this weekend, and after my errands are run and done, I shall play Final Fantasy and Child of Light to my heart’s content.  Perhaps I shall be super ambitious and catch up on all of my blog posts, but for now I sip my coffee and listen to the soundtrack to Child of Light on the Tube of You whilst editing and blogging for you.

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The Editing of Northern Lights – Revelations and Sweetness for Chapter 6

Note: This is the Editing Blog for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–Six Short Edits and Chicken Scratch     All of the Tangents vs. Chapter 6–>

10/3/14
So as can be surmised it is still October (granted the middle for me if the 3rd for the date), which means stores are selling Christmas cards because of course they are.  I’ve already mentioned my love for Christmas.  This is deep rooted in childhood and the memories I’ll (hopefully) always have.  I could become the biggest atheist the world has ever seen, and I would still celebrate Christmas with fucking bells on, an angel on my tree, decorations on my mantle, and the holiest of Christmas carols on my tongue.  Those are my favorite and the bring tears to my eyes when done beautifully and well.

Technically an Advent hymn, so double win!

Hey it’s the Narcissist from the Future quite amused that she JUST posted this as part of my 26 Days of Advent series.

I…fucking…LOVE Christmas, but I don’t like when the holiday is rushed.  It’s not even Halloween, Wegmans!  Why do you have Christmas cards out already?  Why did I stop to anyway to look?  Oh, because I’m the pickiest of sticklers for good angel Christmas cards.  One year I didn’t send any because I couldn’t find good ones, and by good ones I mean the angels have to be beautiful.  How the hell do card designers dare produce these subpar angels?!  Faugh…it’s insulting, so when I find good ones, I buy them regardless of the time of the year.  Thus we have this.

Angel Cards

There are only 14 so only 14 special people will be receiving them this year, maybe one less since I’d like to keep one for myself.

I have been gifted with more evidence that ASOIAF is a metaphor for Revelations by of course the Ice and Fire experts, James and Ladonna!

Oh random but not so random side note: I’ve started playing Final Fantasy II on my continuing quest to play and review all of them (review right here btw).  I’m pretty sure I mentioned this before.  I’ve finished the original and the review is here for your perusal.  In FFII I’ve named my characters Bran, Jorah, Arya, and Jaime.  In the original I went with a Frozen motif and named them Hans, Sven, Olaf, and Elsa.  Yes, I’m a giant dork.  No, I don’t care.

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The Editing of Northern Lights – Six Short Edits and Chicken Scratch

Note: This is the Editing Blog for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–Chapter 6’s Beginning with Controversies and Rants to Behold     Revelations and Sweetness for Chapter 6–>

10/2/14
Welcome back my lovelies.  It was a misty, moisty Monday in my corner of the world, but I was in a rare good mood despite.  I have managed to reach the 100 lb loss mark after two and a half years of trying.  This annoys me a bit as I was hoping to be much further along, but small favors, small favors…

Before and After

Future Narcissist chiming in.  So, yeah…I did lose 100 pounds, but I’ve gained back around 30.  Still a 70 pound deficit is nothing to sneeze at I suppose?  Though I still need to lose about 50 now.  I lowered the goal weight.  I do still mostly look like the right picture where I was around 270.  I’ll tell you.  I don’t care 🙂

I’m more than halfway to my goal and need to “only” lose 70-75 lbs more. (Yeaaaaaah, see above.)  Yes, it’s a lot; yes, it’s daunting, and I need to do it before the end of August 2016. (Bahaha, oh mercy.  I really don’t care about that anymore..)  Why that specific time?  Well that is the last year Otakon (a huge anime convention for the uninformed) is going to be in Baltimore, and I’m planning to attend for the final send off and last hoorah.  It’s moving to D.C., which isn’t terribly far, but it’s still farther than Baltimore (I think).  Of course I’m going to cosplay, and I have a rule about doing fat cosplay (for myself). (…not nearly so much anymore.  Wow, it’s amazing how much more body positive I became in a year…)  I’m breaking it a bit for Halloween since I’m hopefully going as Elsa so long as everything works out.  If it doesn’t I have a backup plan, which I’ve told no one (not even  my husband, and he’s quite vexed about it hehe), but I’d like to pull off the snow queen as she is one of my favorite characters.  Speaking of which I’ve been working on a list of my favorite fictional characters as one of my friends has been doing a countdown on her Facebook page every day.  She has 11, so I don’t think there’s a set number, which is fantastic because I currently have 17.  Can you guess who my favorite character is?  If you can’t, you clearly haven’t been paying attention *wink*

Ah cripes…I forgot that I was supposed to express my opinion about the Hunger Games/Battle Royale controversy from the last post.  I’m going to level with you, guys.  I was fiery hot/passionate about this when I wrote about it the other day, because I’d just had the conversation, but right now I really don’t care.  Ah promises promises…here’s my take.

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The Editing of Northern Lights – Chapter 6’s Beginning with Controversies and Rants to Behold

Note: This is the Editing Blog for my FFVII fanfiction Northern Lights (which you can find at the end of that link).  I will be discussing a myriad of topics along with my frequently tangential and harried editing process.  You should be able to garner some enjoyment and insight from this without having read the story and/or without prior knowledge of the original game, but if you’re a fan of paranormal romance and/or dark fantasy, you may find it to your liking.  The story will be spoiled in this editing examination, though I will do my best to mark spoilers for any other narratives I mention.  Thanks for your interest and enjoy!

<–Esoteric Etchings to Accompany Chapter 5’s Final Front     Six Short Edits and Chicken Scratch for Chapter 6–>

10/1/14
Chapter 6 – Urban Sprawl
Quote: “When true hearts lie withered and fond ones are flown.  Oh, who would inhabit this bleak world alone?” –Thomas Moore “The Last Rose of Summer”
Picture: Yes
Picture Source: No
Picture Satisfaction: Medium High

Another chapter title I so love…

Greetings and salutations gentle readers!  I hope all is going well with thee.  As currently, I have actually finished Chapter 6, but as mentioned before I’m a little behind with my blog updates, which is kind of funny to say as none of you will be seeing this for nigh on half a year.  I’m not putting these up until the story is fully posted, and since I plan on doing a chapter a week, and I’m only  a quarter of the way through editing, I’m looking at June before the tale is full told.

Future Narcissist.  No clue what the hell I was talking about above with being finished by June.  I suppose I thought I’d be done at a different time.  *shrug* Who knows?

I’ve been having a conundrum though because I’d like to get it to my betas sooner rather than later, but I suffer from massive self-doubt, and I’m currently terrified that the story is no good and that’s what I’m going to hear, and if I hear anything overly critical/derisive, I won’t be able to finish my edit.  It’s kind of a silly fear, but I’m a pessimist, and while I try to hope for the best, I always expect the worst.  Random note: the song the quote is from just came on my iPhone.  Will get into that momentarily.  Ah, what was I talking about?  Oh yes, my crippling self-doubt.  Yeah, well I decided I was going to finish the edit of the first part and then take the beta plunge.  That way I’ll be kind of removed from it enough to maybe be able to take the potentially harsh criticism that may not even occur.  This how you live your life when you’re a writer with tissue paper armor.

So I was talking about the title, “Urban Sprawl.”  I’m going to be honest with you all.  It is insanely hard for me not to throw more bad puns into this story.  I mean Northern Lights is a serious, sad, and often heartbreaking tale, and while some levity is certainly warranted, I need not go off the deep end.  I’ll try to mention some of the ones I really wanted to use when I get to the parts where I wanted to use them, but I thought “Urban Sprawl” was clever and fitting for a title since Midgar has one of the worst cases of it I’ve ever heard of.  This is way worse than strip malls, ya’ll.  They very earth is bleeding.

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