The Broken Rose: Chapter 1 – Desecration

Update: There is new art at the end of the chapter.  I’ll be updating all the chapters with this as a beyond generous digital artist has decided to do fan art for my story.


The Broken Rose Page

<–Warnings and Foreword                                                                       Chapter 2–>

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VII, its characters, and settings are all property of Square Enix so I can take no credit nor claim any ownership of that. I do take some credit for the story’s plot.
Banner Artwork Disclaimer:  The featured artwork for the banner is entitled White rose I and was created by the very talented Deviant Artist RemusSirion who was gracious enough to grant me permission to use it here.  The picture has been slightly altered from the original. All rights belong to the artist, and links are included for both the artist page and the work.
Chapter Artwork Disclaimer: The featured artwork for this chapter is entitled Rose in Blood and was created by yet another very talented Deviant Artist Kawaielli.  The picture has been slightly altered in appearance and to include the chapter number and title.  All rights belong to the artist, and the image is used here with their permission.  Links are included for both the artist’s page and the work.

*******MAJOR CONTENT WARNING*******

Consistent and sustained graphic descriptions and mentions of rape/ sexual assault, sexual slavery/bondage, slavery, human trafficking, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of violence, mental abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, body shaming, starvation, torture, forced pregnancy, forced childbirth, miscarriage, forced miscarriage, abortion, and other potential disturbing and triggering topics.


The arrival of her murderer to what was once her church casts a deeper shadow over the horror of Aeris’s life.

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A white rose lays on its side in the middle of the picture with the stem going off to the right. The inner petals are covered in blood and some of this blood has speckled the white background. “Chapter 1 Desecration” in black is to the left of the rose. A good portion of the upper left hand corner is faded to black, and a lesser portion of the lower left hand corner is, too.

“I’ll bind your wounds and comfort you,
‘Cause I know who you are.”
-Mary Fahl “Gravity”

“You have not lived today
until you have done something
for someone who can never repay you.”
-John Bunyan

The instant he saw her he wanted her.  The Cetra was going to be his.  She was naked of course, as all the slaves were, slumped by a broken pew.  They were shackled together, but she was alone, fragile limbs within thick cuffs.  Around her raw throat was an iron collar, and huge chains held her to the floor.  Her bangs, oddly bright, were high on her head, and a coiled braid pooled by her side.

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The State of the Writer: 6/3/18

<–The State of the Writer: 5/20/18          The State of the Writer: 6/17/18–>

A biweekly post updated every Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 2


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction (FFVII) Novel
Current Word Count: 261,043
Prior Word Count: 261,336
Word Difference: -293
Status: Revising
Progress: Chapter 6 review

No source on this one

I’ve consulted my checklist, and, according to that, everything has been done (at least up to the first ten chapters).  Soooo I should be moving on to my regularly scheduled edits.  I should be, but I found a few things in Chapters 6 through 8 that need to be fixed.  Minor edits.  So I’m going to work on that, but I should be posting chapters for this again very soon.

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The State of the Writer: 5/6/18

<–The State of the Writer: 4/22/18          The State of the Writer: 5/20/18–>

A biweekly post updated every Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 4

Tags: 10 Things That Make Life Worth Living – 4/24/18
Awards: Liebster Award #4 – 5/3/18
Tags: The Writer’s Tag – 5/3/18
Book Reviews: The City of Ember by Jeanne DuPrau – 5/5/18

Two tags and one award out of the way means I can check three things off of that combined list.  The book review took so much longer than I anticipated, and I now want to do a book to movie comparison.


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction (FFVII) Novel
Current Word Count: 261,419
Prior Word Count: 261,491
Word Difference: -72
Status: Revising
Progress: Third edit of Chapter 3

Black and white drawing of Aeris/Aerith

No source available

I might be done this revision sooner than anticipated.  I was trying to remember why the hell I’d decided to do it anyway, and thankfully I was smart enough to leave myself a checklist of what I wanted to update.  It seems as though there were portions of the beginning I wanted to change for better accuracy.  This leads me to believe the chapters after 4 may not really need an update, though I am finding I’m doing more refined editing as I go through.  which is never a bad thing.  I’m hoping I can convince the perfectionist side of myself that I don’t need to go over the first 10 chapters (again) with a fine-toothed comb, but she’s a stubborn bitch, so I hope she can be persuaded.

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The State of the Writer: 4/22/18

<–The State of the Writer: 4/8/18          The State of the Writer: 5/6/18–>

A biweekly post updated every Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 2

Book Review: The Winter’s Tale by William Shakespeare – 4/21/18
List: Games Alive – 4/22/18

Ugh…the Games Alive list posted in February because I accidentally published it back then before it was completed.  I forgot WordPress keeps the original publication date unless you schedule it.  I was wondering why the hell I wasn’t seeing it recently.


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction (FFVII) Novel
Current Word Count: 261,491
Prior Word Count: 261,548
Word Difference: -57
Status: Revising
Progress: Second edit of Chapter 3

My hunt for this picture’s source revealed that this is not technically one of Sephiroth, but rather of someone else who shares similar features.  I think it looks a great deal like him with blue lilies in his hair, so I’m going to allow it.

Something very interesting happened to me recently.  I received a contact from someone who thought I was the author of The Broken Orrery, the best written fanfiction I’ve ever read, written CymbelinesHalo.  It’s been over a year since she updated, and the message I received asked if was the author as they implored me to please remedy this.  I was quite flattered that someone had mistaken me for this writing genius, but I had to set the record straight and inform them that I was the author of Northern Lights (TBR isnt on Fanfiction.net; it’s way outside of their draconian censorship stipulations), and I, too, was waiting with bated breath for TBO to be updated.  They haven’t gotten back to me, so I hope their disappointment wasn’t too heartfelt.

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The State of the Writer: 4/8/18

<–The State of the Writer: 3/25/18          The State of the Writer: 4/22/18–>

A biweekly post updated every Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 3

Game Review: Rakuen – 3/27/18
Book Review: Dweller by Jeff Strand – 4/7/18
Game Review: What Remains of Edith Finch – 4/8/18


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction (FFVII) Novel
Current Word Count: 261,548
Prior Word Count: 261,564
Word Difference: -16
Status: Revising
Progress: Finished first edit of Chapter 3

I finished the first (re)edit of Chapter 3 this week.  I think one more should do it before I move onto the next.  It’s funny.  I was a bit frustrated this weekend because I cleaned a bit on Saturday, which led to a 3-4 hour pass out, but apparently making these posts every other week means I yield more progress hehe.

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The State of the Writer: 3/25/18

<–The State of the Writer: 3/11/18          The State of the Writer: 4/8/18–>

A biweekly post updated every Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 2


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction (FFVII) Novel
Current Word Count: 261,564
Prior Word Count: 261,397
Word Difference: +164
Status: Revising
Progress: Editing Chapter 3

No source on this lovely line drawing, mores the pity, but neither of my source sites are yielding any hits.

I’m about halfway through the revision/reedit of Chapter 3.  I was even up until around 4:00 last night working on it (and probably contributed to me passing out this afternoon), so editing marches on.

Project: Story Audio Recording
Title:
Northern Lights
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction (FFVII) Novel
Status: Prepping
Progress: Editing Chapter 1

So I’m essentially editing another story, since I obviously can’t do any kind of audio recording if the “script” (as it were) isn’t up to date.  It always amazes me how much one’s writing can evolve over a short period of time.  I wrote/edited Northern Lights only around two years ago, but I’m finding and fixing some pretty clunky parts.  What’s funny is I did a recording of the full chapter and liked it (at the time), but when it comes to writing there’s always room for improvement, and I doubt any writer’s ever satisfied.  It’s still better than rereading things I wrote a decade ago *shudder*  It’s probably better right now since my voice has still been a problem, but I have honey and lemon to put in my tea, so I suppose there’s hope.


In Progress

  • Games Alive – I am so close to finishing the list of favorite games per year since I was born.  I believe I’m in the ’10’s now or very close to it.  I’m hoping for one more session to write and one more to edit and post.

Rough weekend.  I spent most of it sleeping due to fatigue, and I didn’t get a great deal of what I wanted to accomplish done.  Now to attempt to catch up before it’s time to get ready for work tomorrow.  

What creative stuff are you working on?  Let’s discuss in the comments!

<–The State of the Writer: 3/11/18          The State of the Writer: 4/8/18–>

The State of the Writer: 3/11/18

<–The State of the Writer: 2/25/18          The State of the Writer: 3/25/18–>

A biweekly post updated every Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 0


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction (FFVII) Novel
Current Word Count: 261,397
Prior Word Count: 261,484
Word Difference: -87
Status: Revising
Progress: Editing Chapter 3

I received a flattering comment on Archive of Our Own (AO3) this week asking about this story.  The reader was worried The Broken Rose was going to be left to die, but I ensured them this wasn’t so.  I’m still diligently working on it.  Comments like that are so necessary when one feels down on their writing.  I haven’t had that issue thankfully, but I always appreciate knowing people anticipate what I have to offer.


Project: Story Audio Recording
Title:
Northern Lights
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction (FFVII) Novel
Status: Prepping
Progress: Editing Chapter 1

And we’re back at it!  I’ve had this in he works for a while.  Per planning for this year, I’m not far off in when I wanted to start working on it.  First things first is to do a reedit of each chapter before recording.  Then I have to hope my voice behaves.  I know it has something to do with the asthma medicine I take, and my doctor gave me a few tips/tricks to avoid that.  Once I’m satisfied with the recording, I want to add the appropriate (and copyright free) music where appropriate before posting.  This will also give me the opportunity to utilize my YouTube channel more frequently.  I might test my editing skills by making a video for the blurb…


In Progress

  • Games Alive – This is taking longer than I thought it would, but nearly everything I plan to be quick and easy does.  Non-blogging people underestimate how much time something that requires pictures, some research, and a brief explanation can take especially when you have to do 37 of them.  Ah well, it’s coming along.
  • Book Reviews – Uhhhhh, so I thought I posted the review for Never Never.  Wtf?  It’s sitting in my drafts, and I think I just need to edit and post it.  I swore I posted it and here on Goodreads.  Alright, well at least I’ll have something accomplished in the upcoming two weeks.  I another book review I’m in the midst of, too, but I’ve only done the preliminary prep for that one.

Not a very productive two weeks, but that seems to be the pattern.  I’ll have a really boss biweekly period and then then next one is less than stellar.  Daylight savings time is not helping this endeavor at all.  I freaking hate that we still do this *grumble*

Any creative projects on your plate that you’re willing to share?  Let’s hear about them in the comments!

<–The State of the Writer: 2/25/18          The State of the Writer: 3/25/18–>

The State of the Writer: 2/25/18

<–The State of the Writer: 2/11/18          The State of the Writer: 3/11/18–>

A biweekly post updated every Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 4

  1. Final Fantasy A Crystal Compendium: The Malevolence of Seraphim and Generals – An FFVII and FFVI Comparative – 2/16/18
  2. Final Fantasy A Crystal Compendium – Final Fantasy Friday: Final Fantasy III Review – 2/16/18
  3. An Unattractive Vampire by Jim McDoniel – 2/17/18
  4. A Torch Against the Night by Sabaa Tahir (An Ember in the Ashes #2) – 2/24/18

Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction (FFVII) Novel
Current Word Count: 261,397
Prior Word Count: 261,484
Word Difference: -87
Status: Revising
Progress: Finished Chapter 2

Sephiroth with sword and wing standing in front of the Planet or Meteor

Some awesome person sent me this as a sticker

I finished the review of Chapter 2 last night.  This weekend has been really productive, and I’m hoping I can keep the momentum up during the week.


In Progress

  • Audio Recording – I decided to scrap my recording for The Malevolence of Seraphim and Generals, which I was working on over the past month.  I did record the parts for both Kefka and Sephiroth, but I ran into a hiccup on how to record the third part, since it mostly concerns my analysis of YouTube videos related to the topic.  I may still edit and post what I have at some point, possibly recording the conclusion, but for now I’m going to (finally) move onto my Northern Lights recording project starting this Tuesday.  My plan is to record, edit, and post one chapter at a time, and I’m super excited to see how that will turn out.  It’ll give me the opportunity to not only utilize the premium functions on WordPress if I so desire, but also start using my YouTube channel more, so stay tuned!
  • Games Alive – If you were quick the other day, you might have caught me accidentally posting the draft of this.  It’s the “games for every year I’ve been alive” post.  In fact someone retweeted it lol.  Oh dear :p  I’ve finished compiling the list and am in the process of drafting the post.  Hopefully I’ll be finished before the end of this week and I can go back to working on my game reviews.
  • Rakuen Review – Once Games Alive is posted, I’ll complete and share this poignant review.

I’ve been dancing…a lot.  Not sure what this has to do with the State of the Writer, but the endorphins are putting me in a better mood even if I can’t breathe, my calf muscles hurt, and my heart is kind of wonky.  I’m hoping I don’t hear back from my cardiologist saying, “You have heart cancer!” or something like that.  Anyway, what projects have you been working on?  That are obviously not top secret.  I have a blogger award that’s a bit on the hush hush, and hopefully you’ll see why soon 😉

<–The State of the Writer: 2/11/18          The State of the Writer: 3/11/18–>