10 Things That Make Life Worth Living

Update:¬†I was also tagged in this by Gamers United, so I wanted to include a link to that lovely blog, too ūüôā

It’s not a year yet since I was tagged in this by Athena from AmbiGaming, so I…win?¬† Not that there’s a contest hehe.

Anyway…I believe other bloggers were calling this “10 Things That Make Me Happy” or “10 Happy Thoughts,” but I don’t think that’s appropriate for me.¬† I’ll try to explain this as best I can, and I hope people won’t see it as something negative or needing pity, but I don’t really¬†do¬†happiness.¬† Like, I’m not a happy person.¬† ¬†Now granted, if you ever met me (and of course if I never told you this), you wouldn’t suspect it in the least.¬† I’ve been told I’m very pleasant to be around, which is because I tend to not be social on my bad days. This doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy things in life, nor does it mean I don’t feel things intensely (oh the feels are strong in this one); it’s more like the things I do, I do because they make me feel fulfilled and accomplished like I’m doing¬†something.¬† I write because if I don’t, I won’t be able to get the stories, essays, metas, analyses, etc. out of my head.¬† I blog because I have things to say and the internet allows me to have my own place to say them.¬† It also gives me a medium to display my writing.¬† I play video games because they make me feel like I’m accomplishing something, and I can write about them.¬† I read because I love stories (yes, it really does all come back to stories/writing).¬† I do things that are enjoyable because I’d be less fulfilled and sadder if I¬†didn’t¬†do them, but I can’t say they make me happy, but that’s okay.¬† I don’t know if this is a common trait of people with depression or if it’s maybe an INFJ thing, but the binary of happy/unhappy is fallacious and harmful.¬† Here’s¬†the Oatmeal saying it far better than I ever could.

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Final Fantasy Friday – Winter Fantasy

Final Fantasy Friday

It’s been snowing¬†a lot¬†around here lately (as in three times in one week).¬† Now while I’m sure it would be nothing to my Canada friends, we usually don’t see significant snow until January or February, because the seasons have kind of shifted.¬† Dare I hope for a White Christmas this year??¬† I don’t recall ever seeing one, though the records say there was indeed a snowy holiday in the area when I was old enough to remember it.¬† Fun fact about TSN, I used to be¬†terrified¬†of snow.

My vocabulary wasn’t so, ah,¬†colorful when I was under five, but I did used to say, “No snow!” with a childish lisp, and I refused to have anything to do with the white stuff.¬† And since we’re talking about shit I used to be afraid of, let me not forget to mention cats.¬† My mother had an old friend who had this tuxedo named Spunky, and they’d have to put him away if she ever brought me over.¬† I think it’s because cats are very slinky, tend to appear out of nowhere, and I’ve always been easily startled/frightened.

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Final Fantasy Friday: The Key of Creep

Final Fantasy Friday

In case you haven’t noticed, I am doing a sort of Halloween themed question series for the month of October, and quite a few motifs in Final Fantasy lend themselves to the frightening.¬† Per that vein we’re going to explicitly talk about musical motifs in asking…

What is the spookiest music?

Let me attempt to find the creepiest song in my most well known games.

Opening with Final Fantasy IV, I think “Golbez Clad in Dark” is a really safe bet.¬† I mean, it has both the villain’s name and dark in the title!

It goes along with the “Tower of Zot” music, too.¬† I have to give mention to some of the moon music: “Another Moon” and “The Lunarians.”¬† Anything (literally) otherworldly is a good bet for insta-eerie

For Final Fantasy VI I think it’s definitely the “Fanatics Tower.”¬† Discordant harmonies and regimented drumbeats are always good for a scare.

I’ll throw in “Omen” as an honorable mention, though it’s not particularly scary to me, it still follows a “horror” pattern.¬† Plus it sounds like gothic church music, which is also what I say about parts of “Dancing Mad,” making a nice musical bookend in VI to go along with VII’s visual and musical one.

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Final Fantasy Friday: The Key of “F”

Final Fantasy Friday

Sometimes I pick what I’m going to post for the week based on if I can come up with a clever post title.¬† Once I climb over that hurdle, it’s all smooth sailing.¬† So I’d meant to post another Final Fantasy Character Assessment, because I’m on vacation this week and next, but *loading excuse* I ran some errands that got me home by six, and I have a loooooong list of items still on my to-do list, so this is what you get.¬† Also consider I spent eight hours yesterday working on an essay for the FFVII 20th anniversary so shaddup will ya :p

What’s your favorite Final Fantasy album?

The Advent Children OST.

Years ago, AOL Radio used to have a Final Fantasy channel that I’d list to all day long, and nearly every day they’d play a song entitled “End Credits,” which claimed to be from Final Fantasy VII.¬† Now I know what the end credits to FFVII sound like, and I have the FFVII OST, so I was quite confused to hear this beautiful, ethereal song claiming that title.¬† Not to say the original end credit music isn’t par excellence, but the song in question would bring tears to my eyes (especially starting around 3:38 until the end).¬† Eventually, I discovered it was the end credits to Advent, and I immediately bought the album.

This is probably one of the most beautiful songs I’ve ever heard.¬† The way the music flows is like a leaf or (more likely) a feather on the wind.

I also love “Aerith’s (grumble…hate having to use that spelling, but that’s what the title of the song is) Theme,” “Tifa’s Theme,” and of course Advent’s version of “One Winged Angel,” which I’ll end up speeding to if I’m driving.¬† “Across the Wasteland” is so desolate and dark; “Water” is bittersweet and haunting, “Black Water” shows off a heavy metal aesthetic that fits perfectly with the cyberpunk dystopian nature of the game/film; “Sign” is so eerie; “The Promised Land” is one of those songs I learned the words to immediately so I could sing along in Latin; and “Tenrai~Divinity I” is a song I attempted to learn the words to, but could never find a proper source.¬† The only song I really don’t like is the album’s version of “J-E-N-O-V-A,,” though I do love other versions of that wildly complicated melody such as the original OST’s and The Black Mages’ rendition.

What’s your favorite Final Fantasy album, or, if not FF, what’s your favorite video game album?¬† What makes it your favorite?¬† Is it one or two particular songs or the whole package?¬† Let’s talk more VG music in the comments!


Final Fantasy Friday: Time for a Random Battle

A Final Fantasy (et al) post to welcome you to the glory of Friday (if you don’t have weekends off then may this hopefully brighten the midst of your work week) with more located here!

Final Fantasy is world renown for its music, which I’ve covered here, here, here, and many other places.¬† The title is a bit misleading as this is open for both battle and boss music, but not final boss music (we’ve already discussed that in a prior post).

This is another tough one for me.  So tough that I need to abscond to YouTube to listen to a sample of each.


I’m torn between IV and IX for the Battle Music.¬† They’re both so epic and reflect the more fantasy nature of their games.¬† I love that “uplifting” phrase in IV and the strings in IX (forgive me for my lack in music terms.¬† I’ve sung for many years, but was piss poor at theory).

I’m even more capricious on the Boss Battle Themes.¬† IV wins again though with the continuation of the fantasy theme in its music.

But I also love VII’s more rock/metal-esque sound, which fits perfectly with the game’s aesthetic.

It would seem this should be the end of the debate, bur Final Fantasy is always complicated and has more than just the standard Battle and Boss (and Final Boss).  It would be a travesty to leave them out as some of these selections are the best music the series has ever given us.  One of them is the music played during the battle with the Atma Weapon in Final Fantasy VI

…and the other is Jenova’s Theme.¬† I abhor and fear that abomination with a passion, but there’s no doubt its music is brilliant.¬† There are at least three melodies going on at once, and it twists your mind in knots trying to divine and unwind them.¬† Nobuo Uematsu is a master of the meta in music whether he realizes it or not.

If I ever listen to the above song while driving, I somehow find myself going at least 80 mph, as if I”m trying to outrun something…

Note: The same thing happens during One Winged Angel, especially the Advent version, but that’s because that song kicks ass.

So I suck at answering questions.  If I had to pick a Battle Theme, it would be Final Fantasy IV, and if I had to pick a (regular) Boss Theme, it would be have to be FFIV as well.  VII is a very close second.

Hopefully, you can be more…decisive than I am ūüėČ

Final Fantasy Friday: There’s Always That One Song

A Final Fantasy (et al) post to welcome you to the glory of Friday (if you don’t have weekends off then may this hopefully brighten the midst of your work week) with more located here!

It’s later on Friday than I’d like it to be, but 11:00 still counts as FFF.¬† I had to take a dose of one of my prescriptions that causes drowsiness.¬† It’s a twice a day medicine, and I was initially taking it morning and evening, but I had the annoying side effect of passing out after work every day, so I switched it to after work and before bed.¬† I’ve been kind of under the weather lately though, so I think my after work dose today did me in (I also started taking something new for my asthma.¬† I swear it’s like symptom roulette).¬† Napping is great.¬† It’s also thankfully Friday, and this is a really easy Final Fantasy question for me.

Many of you already expressed this during the Favorite Soundtrack question, and I may have used this in one of my Questions of the Week, but…

What’s your all time favorite Final Fantasy song?¬† If it’s too painful to pick just one, I understand.

“One Winged Angel” from Final Fantasy VII, which I recently found out is always played either as an encore or part of the regular program at the Distant Worlds concerts, is unquestionably my favorite.¬† I love both the original with its lyrics lovingly borrowed from Carl Orff’s Carmina Burana…

or the Advent Children version with its original Latin verse.

I adore that Nobuo Uematsu used Orff as an influence (the Carmina Burana lyrics fit so well), but I also love the dueling electric guitars in the Advent version.¬† Dueling guitars during a duel makes the music meta nor can I decide if my favorite line is “Veni fili veni mi fili hic veni da mihi mortem iterum” from Advent or the traditional “Veni veni venias, ne me mori facias.” ¬†Even though I’m planning on having the latter “Ne me mori facias” tattooed on my arm, I do so love saying the first, and both lines are pretty heartbreaking.

It’s also the theme song for my favorite character so there’s that.

What’s your favorite song?¬† Leave a link in the comments if you want and let’s discuss more awesome music!

Question of the Week: 6/26/16

<–Question of the Week: 6/19/16¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬† Question of the Week: 7/3/16–>

The Question of the Week is posted every Sunday and will consist of a question followed by my answer and explanation to the same.  Some questions will only require a simple answer that could potentially be followed by an explanation.  Many questions will be writer oriented, but not all.  Everyone is encouraged to answer in the comments and discussions/follow up questions are more than welcome!

What is your favorite language to sing in?

Latin is my favorite language to sing in, but German is a close second.  This means I have a great appreciation for E Nomine, a German musical project that features both Ominous Latin Chanting and their mother tongue.

(Um okay, oh…my…God.¬† So I was looking up the link for Ominous Latin Chanting above and came across this gem from DIssidia. Squeenix/Final Fantasy loves its OLC)

This…is my favorite song by them.¬† I’m planning an AMV for it using FFVII and Sephiroth (of course).¬† I first heard this years and years ago when flash videos were a thing, and there was one entitled Faust. The video itself surprisingly holds up, though I think the song really helps.¬† I’m honestly surprised I found it on YouTube.¬† I’ve been trying to locate it for a while and just happened to luck out today.¬† I think there’s some thing with videos being available between Germany and the US.¬† I’ve had some friends over there tell me that they can’t see videos with copyrighted music, mores the pity :\

I’ve sung many songs in Latin back when I was a choir girl among them of course selections from Carmina Burana (“O Fortuna” is so overplayed now that I’m not even going to bother with that one.¬† I actually like the below a bit better probably for the fore mentioned reason).

I can still easily memorize the words even though I didn’t really study nor do I actually speak Latin, but I taught myself the words to the original “One Winged Angel” (which for the unknowing takes its lyrics from selections in Carmina Burana…god I miss singing that).

the Advent Children version

in addition to “The Promised Land,” which is from the fore mentioned movie as well.


I will look up the translation and sing along with the song as it plays, and this somehow carves the words into my mind if I do it enough times.¬† I think AC OWA took me ten minutes to memorize, but “The Promised Land” was a bit longer.¬† I’m still trying to commit the Advent hymn “Veni Veni Emmanuel” to memory.

Then there’s Vivaldi’s “Et In Terra Pax” from his Gloria.¬† This song is absolutely aetherial, and quite difficult to sing.

I feel as though I more answered the question, “What are your favorite songs in your non-native tongue?” instead of my stated question.¬† Maybe I just answered both.¬† But I feel as though I’ve neglected my very close second German even though I did initially laud a German based band.¬† Hm, well, I must say that another song I did in my choir days was by Beethoven, but for the life of me I can’t find it.¬† For some reason I thought it was called Beethoven’s Chorale Fantasy, but all the versions I locate don’t have words.¬† I can remember some of the ones we sang, but I don’t think I could spell them well enough to google.

What is your favorite language(s) to sing in that isn’t your native tongue?¬† It could be one from a second language.¬† What are your favorite songs in said language(s)?

I look forward to your answers in the comments!

<–Question of the Week: 6/19/16¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬† Question of the Week: 7/3/16–>

The 26 Days of Advent: 12/1/15

Ah the first day of December!¬† To me this was always the official start of the Christmas season.¬† The secular start was Black Friday or rather Thanksgiving after Santa Claus showed up at the end of the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade (link for my non-US followers :)); the religious one was the the fourth Sunday before Christmas/Advent Sunday, but to me I knew once December hit, the real countdown had begun.

So for this day I have to call upon those gods of Christmas Rock Trans-Siberian Orchestra or TSO for short for “Wizards in Winter.”

Bonus: This one has the lights display.

Rue’s Whistle and The Great Northern Cave

I saw the first Mockingjay movie this weekend (it was phenomenal btw.¬† I had very few complaints.¬†¬† This is not a review, so I shall not be airing them here), and ever since I’ve had Rue’s four note whistle stuck in my head, but then…something changed.¬† Another song began to worm its way into my brain at the same time (it happens quite often with me).¬† It was the music played in the Northern Cave in¬†FFVII, and I realized it began with those same four notes.¬† Well…not exactly.¬† I’m trying to figure out the difference.¬† I want to say Rue’s song is major and the NC music is minor, but I think they’re both minor.¬† It would take too much effort for me to set up my keyboard and figure this out so I’m just going to post links to both songs.

With the Northern Cave song you have to wait about 20 seconds for the music to start.

Can you hear the similarities?