No writing was done today either. I came home from my jazzercise class and went to bed. Though I did start reading A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms, the prequel to the illustrious A Song of Ice and Fire Series, both of which I recommend. It’s very good so far and shows a world a hundred years prior to the events of ASOIAF and from the point of view of a commoner, Duncan the Tall or just Dunk, a hedge knight.(the link is a bit spoilery if you haven’t read the novellas btw), so it’s an interesting change of view since the “current” novels are mostly written from the view point of nobles at least at the beginning. I’ll more than likely write a review of this.
Shit…this is a post about my (lack of) word count, isn’t it?
Total Word Count: 23733
No words written today. I was still recovering from that argument I mentioned before. Yes, I am this sensitive. No, I will not just grow a thicker skin. I wish it worked like that for me. Some people seem to have the ability to brush these things off easily, whereas I constantly struggle with confidence and self-doubt. I often think of Yeats’s poem “The Second Coming” (which I honestly think of a lot anyway due to various reasons) for the line:
“The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.”
But then I just worry that I’m being narcissist in thinking that I’m only doubting because I’m “the best.” So many meta webs…
Total Word Count: 23733
Today I took part in an argument that drained me to the core. It centered around a certain defense essay, and now I’m just tired and sad. You can have all the words in a thousand tongues and people still won’t understand you. I finally realized that I was arguing how life circumstances have to be considered for every action because nothing comes out of a vacuum, and how me and the person were seeing it was utterly continent on our life circumstances. The meta was not lost on me.
I’m tired and sad because of the true core of the subject matter, and I’m feeling more nihilistic because in reading another blog post about the actual origin of Thanksgiving (which I did know before, but refreshers are always good), I have to face the truth that I was more right in my essay than I initially knew and that most of what we’re told when were young is lie. Now in most cases this is done to protect and not to deceive (as was the situation in my defense), but a lie by any other name is still just as false.
Well…you didn’t come here for my descent into nihilism, did you? You came here for a word count.
Word Count: 1131
Total Word Count: 23733
NaNoWriMo is almost over and I really can’t believe that. I can’t believe how quickly time flies. Soon I will have another daily post that will overlap with this one though for only two days. I was working on the banners for that today. I ended up with four, which is actually appropriately convenient due to the nature of the posting.
Well…I just wrote a few more words so the count is slightly off, but I’m going to keep it.
Word Count: 1352
Total Word Count: 22602
No thousand words today. I didn’t even finish doing my reread/quick edit of what I wrote yesterday. I did augment a conversation and more importantly found a major note I, er, wrote a while ago. I believe I am getting into, well not the homestretch, but the story is winding down. A pivotal point just happened, and there’s really only two (maybe three) more left. That seems like a lot, but one of them is the thing that has to happen in an MA rated paranormal romance. I’ll wait while you figure that out 😉
I have a best line or rather a “line I like.” As mentioned before it’s hard to find ones with this story because one, I try to avoid names (I have my reasons), and two, the nature of the tale. I’d prefer not to need content warnings on these posts.
“…but he could not let her go. Won’t let her go. This is your will, that hideous monster that caused… He shunned it, refused it, would not give it name as emanations of love filled his darkness.”
Word Count: 201
Total Word Count: 21250
Back in the swing of things. Since today is Wednesday, I’m able to get more done since I come home right after work. I planned to write my thousand before anything else, though I would like to work on some other posts (I know…you’re all probably annoyed at the inundation. I’m hoping not to be this behind again), but for now let’s see if I can fulfill that promise made in a prior update about picking my best line of the day.
Hmph, nothing of value I’d wish to impart. It’s not that I don’t like any of the lines, it’s more that they’re fresh written, and I’m picky.
To the word count.
Word Count: 1640
Total Word Count: 21049
No writing today either. I came home from jazzercise and ate dinner while drinking my new concoction of sangria and orange juice. I believe that may have been my downfall. I did play a bit of this old NES puzzle game called The Adventures of Lolo 3, which I grew up with credit it with helping me hone my problem solving skills. Even today I still play it when I can because it really fosters critical thinking. So a big old raspberry to anyone who says video games can’t be educational. I mean…if you’re going to come to my blog and say that, I’d show you the door anyway. Do you have any idea how much I’ve learned from FFVII??? I currently am the student of an entire religious system because of it so I say good day to you, sir or madam.
I’m an alcohol lightweight and I was also still (and am) dealing with the emotional fallout from the past weekend in addition to just being absolutely tired of fighting in general. There’s been a LOT going on in news, politics, social justice, etc. as I’m sure you all know, and I’m the type of person who cannot keep silent when fuckery is afoot. It really rankles me to do so; therefore, I usually speak up. In some cases though I must refrain, and I abhor that because silence only helps the oppressor, and hypocrisy seems to be rampant in some circles. I’m also insanely sensitive and can be wounded by the slightest cruel word. You can probably surmise what kind of problems this would cause.
Anyway…what I want to impart is that no writing happened this day either, so my word counts stands at yesterday’s total.
Total Word Count: 19409