The State of the Writer: 9/8/19

<–The State of the Writer: 8/25/19         The State of the Writer: 9/22/19–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 1


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 254,472
Prior Word Count: 254,544
Word Difference: -72
Status: Editing
Progress: Chapter 19 First Edit

I’ve been waiting a long time to post this chapter.  It might take me a bit to edit, because I want to do it right, but it is so goddamn cathartic for the encompassing narrative of the story and in general.  Whatever your definition of justice might be, I’m still sure we all wish there was more of that in this world.

“I will become a monster for you.  I will sell what remains of my soul, and when I return, I’ll tell you my truth so you will know you loved a horror. “

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The State of the Writer: 8/25/19

<–The State of the Writer: 8/11/19         The State of the Writer: 9/8/19–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 1


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 254,544
Prior Word Count: 254,492
Word Difference: +52
Status: Editing
Progress: Chapter 18 Posted

Being lazy today with the status post since I just posted the 18th chapter.  I think that’s enough said for lol.  I’m pretty happy I’ve edited and posted two chapters in a month, so I can’t say I accomplished nothing this vacation.  I intend to start working on Chapter 19 as soon as possible of course.  It’s a chapter I know at least one person has been anticipated for a long time, and it’s so goddamn satisfying even to me.  I’ve done something like this in every single one of my stories, and it’s cathartic because there’s not much I can do in real life.  Expect it to be over the top…because it is.

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The Broken Rose: Chapter 18 – The Unforgiving Stars

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<–Chapter 17                                                                                                                                 Chapter 19–>

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VII, its characters, and settings are all property of Square Enix so I can take no credit nor claim any ownership of that. I do take some credit for the story’s plot.
Banner Artwork Disclaimer:  The featured artwork for the banner is entitled White rose I and was created by the very talented Deviant Artist RemusSirion who was gracious enough to grant me permission to use it here.  The picture has been slightly altered from the original. All rights belong to the artist, and links are included for both the artist page and the work.

*******MAJOR CONTENT WARNING*******

Consistent and sustained graphic descriptions and mentions of rape/ sexual assault, sexual slavery/bondage, slavery, human trafficking, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of violence, mental abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, body shaming, starvation, torture, forced pregnancy, forced childbirth, miscarriage, forced miscarriage, abortion, and other potential disturbing and triggering topics.


A “dance” amongst flowers and piercing starlight yields a surprise at the end.

A blue and purple sky with several falling stars over a dark blue ocean.

The great sea was visible, shining with starlight, cut with the sharp light of moon.  There were houses above and houses below, but none were obscured by cruel steel.  Sephiroth peered over at his little charge, but she was fascinated by peaceful waters.  Though obscured by some higher roofs at times, both its scent and its hush ruled the air.

“Icicle Inn…” she murmured again, as though tasting the chill on her tongue.  The name stirred the mists and through them, though dim, pulsed a green curtain of light.  If Aeris reached forward , she could almost touch it, but a pleading voice drove her back.  It wasn’t hers, but begging for mercy sounds the same on a million tongues.  She clung to his arm, suppressing a whimper, while forcing herself to speak.  “Wh-What’s a model, g-general?”

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The State of the Writer: 8/11/19

<–The State of the Writer: 7/28/18         The State of the Writer: 8/25/19–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 2


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 254,492
Prior Word Count: 254,537
Word Difference: -45
Status: Editing
Progress: Chapter 18 First Edit

Forgiveness by Doreen Richter

So we need to talk about this picture.  This picture was created by the fore mentioned Doreen Richter who was inspired to make it by Northern Lights.  Yes.  You read that correctly.  SOMEONE CREATED THIS BEAUTIFUL PIECE OF ART BASED ON MY INANE SCRIBBLINGS.  AHHHHHH.  She posted it on my Sephiroth RP/Fan page, which I’m shit at keeping updated but I try.  I didn’t even know the post was there until about a week afterwards, so I apologized profusely.  She didn’t get back to me on whether or not she has an art page, so I can’t put a link anywhere, but I am completely humbled and flattered that someone drew a picture based on one of my stories.  The detailing on Sephiroth’s hair is nothing less than amazing and must have taken her long hours and many hand cramps to complete.   It’s things like this that help pull me from the miring thoughts of “I’m wasting my time” and “Why am I doing this?” so never think your likes and comments, no matter how brief, mean nothing.  They mean everything ♥

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The Broken Rose: Chapter 17 – Gilding the Lily

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<–Chapter 16                                                                                                                                 Chapter 18–>

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VII, its characters, and settings are all property of Square Enix so I can take no credit nor claim any ownership of that. I do take some credit for the story’s plot.
Banner Artwork Disclaimer:  The featured artwork for the banner is entitled White rose I and was created by the very talented Deviant Artist RemusSirion who was gracious enough to grant me permission to use it here.  The picture has been slightly altered from the original. All rights belong to the artist, and links are included for both the artist page and the work.

*******MAJOR CONTENT WARNING*******

Consistent and sustained graphic descriptions and mentions of rape/ sexual assault, sexual slavery/bondage, slavery, human trafficking, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of violence, mental abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, body shaming, starvation, torture, forced pregnancy, forced childbirth, miscarriage, forced miscarriage, abortion, and other potential disturbing and triggering topics.


Author’s Note: I mention the “in between/sidestepping” a bit in this chapter.  It’s a concept I came up with while writing Northern Lights.  This story takes place in sort of an alternative branch to that.  I have a whole thing about that, which I won’t bore you with right now, but it’s another “what if” of the already huge “what if” that is my Aeriseph fanfiction.  Hopefully, you’ll surmise from the text what the hell I’m talking about (if you haven’t read Northern Lights).  I guess I was kind of lazy with writing this in assuming anyone who’d read it would’ve already read that, but it is explained in Chapter 4 of the previous work.


Aeris takes the chance on a more meaningful outing to find a highly coveted item.

A slightly curved, wicker flower basket sitting by a window in sunlight with a shadow underneath. Within the circle of the handle are the words "Chapter 17 Gilding the Lily."

A slightly curved, wicker flower basket sitting by a window in sunlight with a shadow underneath. Within the circle of the handle are the words “Chapter 17 Gilding the Lily.”

Much to his guilt, the general loved the days at a time his Aeris would stay in the Gate.  Loved for there would his flower be, ensconced in his arms on his lap.  Napping or reading or asking him questions, which grew into conversation.  Oft times her fingers woven in silver, as she practiced and tried to recall.  The way of the braid, and he’d gently re-show her over and over again.  She was better with nails, and his were now colored black with the shine of the stars.  A void he could study, draped around her, as the Cetra dreamed on his lap.  Hers were light pink and shimmered, too.  She’d insisted to make them match, and he could not deny his love of the sight: her tiny hand topping his broad.  Seeing it curled there seemed so right, a sign of her rightful place.  He was her support.  He was her protector.  This was an absolute.

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The State of the Writer: 7/28/19

<–The State of the Writer: 7/14/18         The State of the Writer: 8/11/19–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 1


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 254,537
Prior Word Count: 253,441
Word Difference: +1096
Status: Editing
Progress: Final (god willing) Edit of Chapter 17

So remember how I decided to change/update some things?  Yeaaaaah, I completely scrapped that.  Well, not completely.  I left some of the sewn seeds, but decided I was jumping the gun a bit.  This meant I had to find a previously saved version, which was no difficult feat as I consistently email copies of the story to myself.  What was difficult was getting it to open.  For some reason Word didn’t want to cooperate, so I had to use Google Docs, which is fine.  You can copy/paste from there just as readily, and I guess it’s nice not having to save/rename another copy of the story unnecessarily.  Right now I’m re-editing the parts I switched back to make sure it flows, and if all goes well, I should have the next chapter out by the end of this week.

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The State of the Writer: 7/14/19

<–The State of the Writer: 6/30/18         The State of the Writer: 7/28/19–>

A post updated every other Sunday discussing my current writing projects and any completed the prior two weeks.

Finished Projects: 0


Project: Story
Title:
The Broken Rose
Genre: Paranormal Romance
Type: Fanfiction
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Length: Novel
Current Word Count: 253,441
Prior Word Count: 253,610
Word Difference: -169
Status: Editing/Drafting
Progress: Drafting

About this picture…I will now quote from the famed philosopher: the internet.

When VR become indistinguishable from reality, fantasies will be OFF THE CHAIN.

Do with that what you will.  Oh, and I definitely want one of those hand thingies my dear Seph is wearing on his right   Apparently, Alexa has been listening because I keep getting advertisements and Pinterest recs for them now.  Also, I’m aware his wing is on the wrong side.  Are you going to tell him?  I thought not…

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